Ginawa ko ang one shot nato dahil naboboring ako at na inspired ako sa amerkanong naka kwentuhan ko tag/lish po ito haha sorry kung wrong grammar tao lang nag kakamali din sana magustohan
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the sparrows are a family of small passerine birds, passeridae.
My name is Sentina Dawson i am 26 year's old i want to share my childhood story.
A question i often asked my self as a child was " where do my sparrows go when they die " i didn't know the answer then and i still wonder about it. now i see a dead bird silenced by some evil force, and i know he didn't die. something killed him. the elements took him away, a lost soul in the night.
Nung anim na taong gulang ako. mayroon akong bestfriend na lalaki. lagi kaming nag lalaro sa sandbox ko, nag kekwentuhan ng mga bagay na hindi namin kakalimutan kahit lumaki na kami - like never growing up yun sana ang gusto namin. pero lalaki at lalaki kami alam namin yun, at hindi din namin pwedeng kalimutan yung monster sa ilalim ng kama at sa pinag tataguan namin na madilim na closet. ang pangalan nya ay Tam tam pero tinatawag ko syang sparrow dahil maliit sya sa idad nyang un. its ironic to think of that name now dahil patay na sya .
I remember the day i found out tam tam was dying . i waited in the sandbox for him, half-heartedly building the castle we began the day before. pag wala si tam tam parang kalahati lang ako, nag hintay ako sa kanya na parang walang hanggan, at nag sisimula ng umulan. then i heard a distant ring from the house . 10 minutes later dumating si mama sa sandbox at may dala syang payong pero bakit basa ang kanyang mukha. nag lakad na kami pauwi sa bahay namin. pag pasok namin humarap agad ako sa labas at pinanuod ang ulan na unti unting sinisira ang sand castle na ginawa namin ni tam tam.
Pag katapos kong panuorin kung pano masira ang sad castle namin. pumasok ako sa loob para uminum ng hot chocolate para mainitan ang tyan ko ..
My mom called me to the table .she put her hands on mine . they were shaking . i immediately felt it . something had happenedbto tam tam . she said doctors had performed some blood tests awhile back. when they received the test result, something showed up wrong. that something was leukemia. hindi ko alam kung ano yun naguguluhan ako sa sanasabi ni mama i look at her with confused eyes, but with a knowing and heavy heart. sabi nya yung meron daw ng sakit na yun ay si tam tam . hindi ko alam kung ano ba yung leukemia na un ang alam ko lang sa oras naun . ayokong umalis si tam tam, kailangan ko sya sa tabi ko lagi.
Kinabukasan kailangan kong makita si tam tam. kailangan ko syang makita at itanong kung totoo lahat ng nalaman ko, kaya nung uwian namin sinabi ko sa bus driver namin na dun ako dalhin sa bahay nila tam tam imbis na saamin. nung nasa pinto na ako ng bahay nila tam tam lumabas ang mommy nya at sinabi saakin na ayaw akong makita ni tamtam. wala syang ideya kung gaano nya ko nasaktan, he broke my heart like a piece of cheap glass ..
tumakbo ako pauwi ng bahay habang umiiyak. pag ka uwi ko sa bahay tinanong ako ni mama kung bakit hindi ako hinatid ng school bus namin, sinabi ko na lang dumalaw ako kay tamtam . pakatapos ng araw na yun hindi ko na ulit naka laro si tamtam .
1 month passed , pero maski anino ni tam tam hindi ko pa din nakikita, lagi akong pumupunta sa tapat ng bahay nila at nag hihintay na sana lumabas si tam tam pero wala pa din i missed him so bad, araw araw umiiyak ako iniisip ko ayaw na ba sakin ni tam tam, may iba na ba syang bestfriend galit ba sya sakin. lagi ko yun tinatanong sa sarili ko. pero wala akong makuhang sagot, walang nag tatanggol sakin pag inaaway ako ng classmate namin. dahil hindi na din sya pumasok simula nuon ..
Hindi na din ako nag laro pa sa sand box ko dahil pakiramdam ko kulang na kulang ako. isang araw pag ka galing ko sa school may na tanggap akong tawag na hindi ko inaasahan , tam tam called. he said to meet him at the sand box after our parents went bed, so i did.
He didn't look different, maybe a little paler, but it was tam tam . he did want to see me. we talked of those subject incomprehensible to adults, and all the while we rebuilt our sand castle. tam tam said we could live in one just like it and never grow up. i believed him whole heartedly. there we fell asleep, engulfed in true friendship, surrounded by warm sand and watched by our sand castle.
I woke up just before dawn. Our sandbox was like desolate island surrounded by a sea of grass, interrupted only by the back patio and the street. A childs imagination is never ending the dew gave the imaginary sea a reflective shimmer, and i remember reaching out to touch the dew to see if it would make the make believe water ripple, but it did not. i turned around, and tam tam jolted me back to reality.
Gising na sya, nakatitig lang sya sa sand castle namin. kaya sumali na din ako at umupo sa tabi nya, locked in the awesome magic the sand castle held for two small children.
" im going to tha castle now "
he said. we moved like robots, as if we knew what we were doing, i guess in some small way we did . tam tam laid his head on my lap and said ..
" if im passed away
do not stand at my grave and weep.
i am not there.
i do not sleep.
i am a thousand winds that blow. i am the diamond glint on snow . i am sun light on ripened grain,
i am the autum rain.
when you awake in the morning hush, i am swift uplifting rush of birds circling in flight at night.
im going to the castle now sentina. Come visit i'll be lonely "
I promise to him with all my heart that i would. then he close his eyes, and my sparrows flew away to where i knew at that moment all the other sparrows went when they died. and there he left me , holding a soulless , crippled little bird in my arms.
I went back to tam tam's grave 20 years later and placed a small toy castle on it. On the castle i had engraved, " to tam tam my sparrow. i'll come to our castle someday, forever "
When im ready, i'll go back to the placed where our sandbox was and imagine our sand castle. then my soul, like tam tam's will turn into a sparrow and will fly back to the castle, and to tam tam and to all the other little lost sparrows. a six year old again who will never grow up.
end :))
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