I feel broken inside
My hearts sinking
My hand aches
My body's shaking
My eyes are drained
My eyes are tired
My voice is weak
My soul is weaker
My belief is gone
My trust is broken
You threw it all away in a few words
You threw it all away because of your spite
You threw it all away by lying
You threw it all away by breaking me apart
You threw it all away when you said im not showing you
And now my hearts sunken and i dont know what to do. I dont want anything new but i dont want anything old. I dont even want where i am right now. I just want to go. And disappear forever. From the past, from the now and from the future.
I want to break your heart too. But i could never hurt someone... you.. like this. I would never betray you. But i want to. I want to break you but i dont know what to do because i can't do this to you.
I want you to hold me but i dont. I want you to kiss me but i dont. Because i know the trust i felt when you did it before is gone..all gone.
I was honest to you
I was who i was to you
Where did i go wrong?
where did i miss out..
I cared about you every moment ever.
You were rude. You lied. You hid. You betrayed and you broke. and you say you need me now. You need me to satisfy and console your guilty soul not to love me not to be with me.
You said you waited three years to get me. I believed every word you fucking said to me but you still spoke to her the way you spoke to me the first time.. if not more.
I cant handle it
I cant deal with you
I cant deal with this
It hurts too much and i listen to the same songs i hummed along to with you but now the only thing that accompanies them are my tears.
You let go of me
And
You've lost me now.
