Raindrops on roses
Day 1:
19 hours, 36 minutes, and 17 seconds since you've been gone.
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I still can't believe it actually. I still believe that I'll wake up from this 19 hour dream with you next to me. Can I?
Blood stains on linens
Day 2:
Exactly 45 hours since I've seen you. I can't seem to tell whose blood is whose anymore. The tile is covered in it. If you were here you'd help me clean it. But I can't seem to bring myself to wipe you away for good. Can you help?
Razors and long sleeves
Day 3:
69 hours and 33 minutes since you've gone. I feel blessed that we wear coats for our uniforms, or else people would see my pain. I can't let that happen. Not ever. They think I don't miss you. That I'm cold hearted. Maybe I am, you made me warm. Can you be my warmth again?
That keep my scars hidden
Day 4:
96 hours. 4 days on the dot. I had to get a new shirt. The sleeves got stained. They almost got exposed. I can't let that happen. They can't know I miss you. And if they knew I wouldn't be able to avenge you. I need to work harder. Can you guide me?
Jumping off buildings
Day 5:
I lost count of the hours, but i know its been 5 days. We went on an expedition today. The first without you. We had to clear some of the titans from wall Maria, not many people died surprisingly. But, standing on top of those buildings reminded me of you. Everything does. I tried to jump to be with you, but instincts kicked in. I used my 3D maneuvering gear. I hate how I can't do anything right, to be with you. Can you come get me?
Like birds without wings
Day 6:
I saw a crow today. It reminded me of your hair. And that you've been gone for 6 days. It feels like more. This crow was different from you though. It didn't have wings. I'm not sure what could've taken them, but something sure did. You are better than that wingless bird though. You have your wings. Bright white ones that contrast your pitch black hair. I hope I get to see them in person soon, and maybe get my own. That would be nice. I've only seen you in my dreams since you left. It's not enough. Can you give me wings?
These are a few of my favorite things
Day 7:
Its been a week. A week since I've seen your hair, your rare smile, your abilities, you clean. I can go on and on. I love every thing about you. I miss everything about you. It's only been a week, but I miss you more than ever. I'm coming back to you soon. Maybe sooner than you think. Can I come to you? Scratch that, I will come. I am coming. See you soon.
