The Secret | HyungWonho

14.

Hello everyone! I hope you haven't felt impatient for the updates. I'm really sorry it's taking long this time. T_T

Thank you for all your support. I simply love you all. <3 In all honesty, the updates I've seen over Twt the past days about Hyungwon and Wonho has given me a lot of pain because honestly, I no longer have a bias list in Monsta X XD It's simply hard to choose a bias from them, really. #StanTalent. #StanMonstaX

Anyways, let's not make this any longer, and start, shall we? :3

Enjoy~!

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"Could you please stay away from me?"

In all honesty, Hyungwon didn't exactly know how to react to Hoseok. He was happy that his best friend was there and that the first thing that they could do was to finally talk. However, he didn't really know how he would approach the other. Would he be calm? Would he be firm? Would he be straight to the point? He didn't really know. This was going to be his first time, and it was giving him a really hard time. He wasn't even sure if it was fine if he just let it pass.

But he knew he couldn't...

And everything came in a blink of an eye. At the very moment that Hoseok had placed his arms around his abdomen, fear was the first feeling that crept up to him. Impulsively, anyone scared would react in an angry manner, right? That was what his initial reaction. He wasn't even sure if it was the right thing to feel at the moment, it was just what he wanted to show.

And there was no way out...

Hyungwon could feel all of the eyes inside their classroom. He didn't know that he had actually said it out loud. He unconsciously blurted out those words louder than they were intended to. But, the most burdensome stare was the one coming from Hoseok. As Hyungwon looked through his eyes, he saw what he feared the most.

Pain.

And at that moment, he felt like everything was his fault. He felt that he is the one to blame of all that had happened today. If he reacted during the first time they kissed, then things wouldn't have gone this way. If he had not kissed Hoseok back, then things wouldn't have led to the awkwardness that Hyungwon felt right now. It was all his fault.

I was to be blamed...

Being unable to control his emotions anymore, Hyungwon made his way towards the door. He ran, with no specific direction nor place to go to in mind. He just ran. He wanted to escape the complicated scenario that he had made. He wanted to disappear.

Disappear...

Hyungwon kept on running, until he had become tired. The moment that he had stopped running, he realized that he had reached far when he looked at his surroundings. He was only a few blocks away from home, and he was honestly tempted to go home instead. Thinking it was the only best solution that he had, Hyungwon decided to go home and lock himself up, not caring if what would happen to him within the day. He needed escape. He had to escape.

It was better than shame...

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Class had ended, and Hyungwon was still nowhere to be found. Miss Kang had noticed because according to her, Hyungwon was with her this morning inside the bus and he knew that the other had went to school, but she was wondering why the other wasn't inside the classroom. Nobody dared to speak. Some of the students in the class looked down, while other threw glances at Hyungwon's chair. Others looked at Hoseok, who was nervously seated beside Hyungwon's empty chair. He himself didn't know how to respond to Miss Kang's query, because everything had just come too fast. However, since nobody answered, she just let it off as Hyungwon probably dozing off somewhere without her permission.

It was still a mystery for Hoseok as to why Hyungwon had suddenly treated him coldly. It wasn't his first time to be treated that way, but from someone as calm and innocent as Hyungwon, it was unlikely for him to act such. What happened to him?

Everyone had already left their classroom, except for Hoseok. He was still standing in front of Hyungwon's chair. A part of him wanted to stay and wait for Hyungwon to come back, because he probably would, while another part of him wanted to take his belongings and leave. It was most likely that Hyungwon wasn't coming back anyway.

Deciding on what is the better option, Hoseok fished out his phone from his pocket. He immediately typed on his phone and sent a message to Hyungwon.

Your things are with me. I'll just leave them in front of your door. I'm sorry if I've done anything wrong. – Hoseok.

He had read the message twice, thrice even, just to make sure that it had no second meaning. He didn't want to burden Hyungwon any further. He didn't know what he had done wrong, but he didn't want to add more to whatever he had.

Sent.

As soon as Hoseok had made sure that it was sent, he started walking out of the classroom and out of the campus, still undecided if he was doing the right thing of bringing Hyungwon's bag to their house. Well, he assumed it was the right thing, rather than leaving it in school. Hoseok thought that the other would have more reason to be mad if he had lift his things in school.

While walking, Hoseok thought hard as to what the other's reason was why he was mad. He thought carefully, thinking of all the things he had done for the past week. Until it hit him.

The kiss...

Hoseok thought that Hyungwon might have realized what had happened. He knew the other was still straight, and that he had thought of what had happened. That explains the reason why he was mad. He tried to think of something else that could have caused the other's sudden change and anger, but there was nothing else that pointed to the reason besides that.

He was mad because I kissed him...

Now, Hoseok was feeling nervous and scared of what could happen if the two of them had met again. He was scared of what Hyungwon might think. He was scared that the other might throw another fit at him, shunning him from his life. He didn't want that to happen. He wanted to stay friends with Hyungwon. Yes, he loved him more than that, but he wanted Hyungwon's presence. He wanted him to be there so that he would be inspired, so that he could still move forward.

He was also nervous because whatever he would say could trigger the other. He was nervous because he didn't know how he would act in front of the other. Would he act innocent, pretending that nothing had happened? Or would he act guilty, knowing for a fact that what he had done had already put a scar to their long friendship.

Overthinking, Hoseok had realized that he had already reached Hyungwon's place. He felt twice the nervousness he originally had, plus he now feared of the outcome. However, he needed to fix this once and for all. He needed courage. A lot of it.

Hoseok walked towards their door. It took him long before he was able to reach the front of their door, as if it was the longest walk of his life. He was already fearing for the outcome. He realized he wasn't even ready for what he was about to say. He had thought long for what to say, but all of those thoughts flushed off his head as soon as he arrived in front of Hyungwon's door.

And to top all of his misfortune off, the door suddenly opened, and a very familiar voice spoke in a mocking tone.

"Hello, Hoseok. What brings you here?"

It was Changkyun.