{ [ TRIGGER WARNING: DOMESTIC ABUSE, THEMES OF RAPE, ALCOHOL ETC ] }
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Name: Felix Louise Martin
Faceclaims: Daisuke (Hibi-Chouchou), Shion (NO.6), Yukine (Noragami), Haruka Kokonose (Kagerou Project)
Height/Weight/Age/Gender/Sexuality: Felix is 5'5, 115 LBS and his age is 14. Felix is also a bisexual male.(Can change for RP if needed.)
Personality: Felix is an outgoing fellow, making dumb jokes and puns. He is only like this to people he knows, he is sensitive and timid. Innocent and pure, is clueless to anything sexual.
B A C K S T O R Y:
Felix was born in a bad and toxic family, this is not going against any Religion. But his parents who are extremely religous, are homophobic/trans/biphobic.
Felix's dad was the most, he did not was /anything/ to associate with them. His mother was sweet to the children, unlike the father who expected a lot from them. The eldest brother, was 24 and had a great job. He was successful, but greedy and stingy. Did not share it with anyone, did not feel anything. The children had a ton of expectations, and Felix being one of the few males he had some of the most.
His mother cared for her children, all that she could. She had three jobs, while her lazy husband or Felix's father did nothing. She did everything she could, all those years.. they just don't add up.
His mother then was diagnosed with breast cancer, she was weakened. Still trying to work hard, all the strength that she had.
She was on medical drugs, now starting to get into dangerous drugs. Abusing the perceptions, and getting into alcohol too.
He had to care for his siblings, trying to copy what his mom did. Cleaning up the house, and trying to get any money he can. Buying clothes, cooking with what little stuff they have. He was like a mini-mom.. since his mother is not like a mom anymore.
His father did not care for anyone, he was greedy at heart and was not that great of a person.
At age 13, Felix tried to come out to his parents as 'bisexual.' His father yelled, shouted he was enraged. Punching him, not too hard but hard enough to give Felix a black eye.. it was truly sad.
Felix heard his father verbally and physically abusing his mother. He was so torn up, he had nearly no one. He was an outcast at school, only maybe one or two close friends.
The next morning, Felix's father had left the family. All of his relatives blamed Felix, had a grudge against him. His mother now verbally abusing him, telling him he's worthless and now his father left only cause of him. He did not want to leave his room, if it wasn't for school he would've been cooped in there forever.
His mood was horrible, he had no one. Now on his first week of highschool, he was getting bullied. He was openly bisexual, causing people to pick on him.
He met someone, someone who brightened him up. One of his first friends, since moving schools. His name was Harri Smith.
Everytime Felix was around him, he felt enchanted. Like a magical spell, an happy aura. Harri brought him food, knowing that his family had nearly to nothing. Harri was 17, while Felix only 13 at the time.
Harri brought him shelter, he worked for him. Bringing him all he needed, treating him like a prince or god. It was adorable, soon things get a little serious.
On 2015/28th/10 or October, the 28th of 2015. They had a real moment, Felix felt warm and cozy. Up against him, a true smile on his face. His lips meeting against Harri's, a shock going through the older boy's brain. Then kissing back, they... kissed.
Soon things led to things, and they started to date. Felix was happy, his mother was getting better and not as bitchy.
Everyone snaps, everyone knows a deep secret. Even Harri Smith. On April 25th, 2016 Harri snapped. Yelling and shouting at Felix, for making a mistake.. he knocked over Harri's last item of his mother's.
Harri's mother died, when he was just 11. He loved her, cherished her and she died.. from lack of food and a house fire... His mother was poor, just like Felix's mother. She worked all day, just for him. Just for Harri, she was pregnant at a young age of 16. No one knew who the father was, and Harri's mother's parent's disowned her, for having a child at such a young age. She starved her self, just for her child. So she can bathe him, feed him and make the kid happy. One day the child was playing.. when a fire broke out, an electrical power error caused a fire. He was only 11 when it happened, and he was devastated. The only thing surviving, is a couple things. A photo of him and his mother, being one of them.
Harri had no other item of hers, but that photo of him and her. It was depressing, and Harri yelled at him. Shouting, with tears in his eyes. Felix was mortified, then avoided Harri for two weeks. This just made Harri even angrier, storming at Felix when he was done school. Abusing him physically, and Felix had flashbacks to his father. They were so similar, a fist up as the man punched the innocent boy.
This went on for several months, abuse and abuse. Felix had no other place for food, he couldn't get a job since he was not old enough. He had to stay with him, for his siblings. For him, he was blinded by love. He still loved the man, knowning it was wrong, and it was so tragic.
Bruises and scars, he was happy when Harri hit him. He said sorry, not Harri. It was a complete mess, then.. Felix just woke up in the bed, to realize Harri had left.
Harri left him, now this.. this made Felix sick to the stomach. Looking for him for a day, and just skipping school completely.
A voice in his head, telling him he was /not/good enough. "You are not good, you are not worthy. They both left cause of /YOU./ You are not great, you never were.. you never will be." Were just the tip of the ice berg, voices and visions telling him that he was not good enough.
"Starve your self, he will come back. They will love you again, you will feel welcome." The voices called out, he thought about it.. he started to look at his body. Felix did it, starving and cutting down on /everything/ he ate.
He didn't eat anything at all, and at the end of the day he ate a bunch at the end of the day.. and throwing it up.
He was happy, the pain was almost as bad as the punches Harri did to him.
It went on for months on ends, he was in chains and he smiled as his body got thinner and thinner. He didn't even remember what else happened in those months, it was just a big.. black blur.
He was tired.. and cold, scared..
He saw his body, it was nearly skin and bones. Realizing this /wasn't/healthy, horrified and then starting to eat normally. Eating disorders do /not/ work like that, your body stores food for the next 'starvation.'
Thinking it won't get food for a while, so it saves extra energy.
He did not tell anyone any of this, he does not tell anyone the abuse in the past. The starvation, he did not tell anyone but the voices. There were two main ones..
Harri's voice, it wasn't actually Harri.. just a mimic of it, and whenever he heard it it made Felix happy. Listening to whatever it said, and he was like a slave to that voice inside his own head.
His own voice, or something like it.. the voice helped him, and told him he was worth it. Unlike the other voice, who told him that he was horrible. This voice was positive.
He was in chains, his body fighting and the PTSD not helping. Every time he saw someone who looked like Harri, he'd break down and cry for an hour to even three hours straight.
He fell in love, and now whenever he closes his eyes, he can see Felix Martin, drowning. Himself drowning, and him swimming up for air, but he is in chains.. and when he tries to break out, it fails. Felix keeps on trying to break out, and when he succeeds.. and try's to swim up. A new wave, pushes him back down to the dark abyss.
The voices aren't normal, he is schizophrenic.
He is lost... all he wants to do is help other people, who need help just like him.
