A Beautiful Mess

Nineteen

London

Zyale and I separated into our different cars. I felt extremely bad for him, I mean he lost a child. Imagine if we lost Jada - I'd go insane. Pulling up to my house I exited my car and waited for him by the door. When he got in he broke down on the couch. It took a while for me to adjust to him crying. I never really saw him cry. "Zyale everything will be okay." I cooed softly putting my arms around him. "Please stop crying Zyale."

"I lost my son London, I can't have another one." He cried. I hugged him and made him look at me, "Look Zyale, I'm here for you. I love you, alright. Everything will be okay." After watching a funny movie featuring Kevin Hart and Kat Williams as I sat on Zyale's lap. I think this is the best time I have ever had with him in a while. He held my waist and I had my arms around his neck. "I miss times like this Lon. Forreal." I smiled at him, "Me too." He pecked my lips and laid me down on the couch. He hovered over me with my legs around his waist. "Zyale - we aren't together."

"London we don't have to do this just tell me. But feel guilty you have me hard." He mumbled in my ear. I felt myself getting moist in between my legs. He started sucking on my neck which let a groan slip. Soon we were undressed and I was screaming. "Shit Zyale!" I cried. "You can take it." He groaned huskily. "Oooooh." I scratched his back.

My body fell limp and he pulled me near him. "I really missed you." He kissed my forehead. "I missed you too." I closed my eyes falling into the best sleep I've had in a long time. It won't hurt for Jada to stay by Laylee for another day.

I woke up and wiped the sleep from my eyes. I miss him - I really do. He gives me life and love and cares but he can't help the stupid things he does. The baby thing was plain ridiculous but he lost his son. I lost my step-child. I don't even know if I'm sane anymore. I want to talk this through with him. I just want him to be faithful. I want him to quit the street life. I want him to be okay. Safe. That's my only intension.

"You straight London? Why you crying?" He wiped my eyes. "I really want to talk to you." I looked up at him. "I'm all ears as I've always been." I gave a half smile, "Yeah, I know. But I miss you, I love you and I care for you and I know you care for me. You make me happy and all that I just want you to stay faithful and committed to this family. You're always like 'I love y'all' and 'I'm sorry' but can you show it?" I wiped my eyes. "I love you London, I love you more than everything. I'd give my life for you. London will you be my fiancée? I'll take you to get the ring tomorrow and everything. From this moment on I don't want to hurt you anymore. I don't want to be torn apart from Jada's life anymore. I'll be right to y'all."

I kissed him and smiled, "Yes!" I squealed.

After completing my hygiene things and Zyale in the other bathroom we both joined each other in his Audi. "Can I have this car?" I joked pulling my shades up. "Sure, I got a black one, you can have this silver one." He started the car up and backed out. "I was playing baby and where are we going?" I asked. "Kay jewelers." He mumbled pulling down his New Orleans snapback and biting on his lip piercing. I found it oddly attractive. Well he's all mine anyway. I smiled at the thought. I really hope he can change.

"Baby come on." He signaled for me to get out. Following him out Zyale intertwined our hands. "Go choose babe." He smiled, "I'ma be in the store next to this one." I looked over, "Er that's the tattoo store." I bit my lip, "another one?" I raised my eyebrow. "Yeah, wait until you see it, you'll like it baby." He ensured. "I want to go with you then, we can come in here together." He agreed and we both entered the tattoo shop. "Yo Yayo!" Zyale greeted a really really big guy. "Sup Zyale, watchu need?"

Zyale described what it was that he needed and went in, "See you in 15." He winked. "Boy bye." I chuckled sitting down, crossing my legs, and going on Pintrest to see ideas for what I want to buy Jada. Man I miss my baby, Laylee called earlier telling me they went out to the water park. Which I thanked her. I can't wait to see my baby though

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Questions (must be answered for next chapter) //

-how is it so far

-what should happen between Zyale & London

-do you think he will be faithful

Thoughts on //

-London

-Jada

-Zyale

-Laylee

Surprise in the next chapter fyi ;)