Here and now is what I’m worried about.
Here and now is what my brain functions around.
While others look at the future and beyond
I’m to worried on what’s here and now
Boys, Friends, Trends and popularity….
So focus that blade is who I turn to
So focus I fall into darkness and splash in thick redness
So red it’s black and dark that I just stayed there
I hear the music of cry’s so used to my own I don’t recognized others
Swallowed in hollowness so thick that Im stuck
Im stuck in none thing somewhere, someplace no one has even been
Where no one can reach me and I laugh at whoever trys to help
So afraid of the light cause I never had a taste of it
That I decided to stand into the dark which welcomes me with open arms
So use to not having anyone I push everyone away
Don’t get sad its not you its me for I’ll never let go the relationship between the blade and me
I neeed more. More of something that’ll make me fall deeper into my escape. Something that’ll bring me back home
Hmmmm….. I run and hide for my drunken dad has broken my transe
But where to I hide? Under the bed? In the Closet? By the time I tried to move he was already there
Hovering over me as it I was the answer.. the release to his problems
He whispers it’s the last time as he undress me and cut through by legs
This pain is what I was looking for! Yes ! Yes! love it !
Not him or what hes doing just the pain! its better than mr.blade
I sucked in a sharp breath as I seen my mother with a gun pointing at me
Not him but Me
I closed my eyes and looked at the celling im ohkay with dying
I’ve tried to do it myself plenty of times but failed!
POW!
……
The pain that escalated in my head felt so good as I invited the bullet in
I looked over and seen a demon and he promises me internity in the dark
Welcoming me with a open hand I followed him
Into the shadows. Finally I got what I wanted
Im now one with darkness!
