My Love to Jay

The beginning of discovery

         Its was a more that usual night for me. Am not an alcoholic person. But I consider myself a heavyweight drinker. In actual just one beer is all it takes to make me tipsy. That won't ever stop me from having another one. I can take that.

It all started with a small part time job my friend had got me. Its a decent pay for 4 hours of few restaurant table waiting. All I had to do was walk around and take orders and the bonus is I can flirt with the customers. Its a win-win if you ask me. I already had money for my college tuition from my scholarship. So now with this waitressing job pay I could do whatever I wanted to. In fact me and my friends had same thing in our minds. Go for long rides and chilled beers. Going to parties and getting laid was so overrated. I wanted to do things out of the box. Waitressing may not seem so out of the box. But the paycheck is.

So there I was with my friends riding Sean's car going wherever we wanted to just because we could. My friend San and her boyfriend Sean in the back seat making out lightly. Am not a peeping Tom type its just common sense.

Lover plus lover plus car back seat plus night equals make out time.

I always wanted a boyfriend who would hold me and whisper soft romantic sappy shit in my ear. The shit just won't happen. All I get are fake little Mommy's boys playing around and stuff. They never grow up. I think the one who is driving the car is having hell of a time with me. He is an alright guy. Good company and good personality.  Not faking to be anything he is not. The way he talks, looks, smiles, everything screamed "Good Guy". And my mind screamed "Friend zone".

The poor guy doesn't even know to flirt properly. Now I may be drunk and emptied 3 bottles of beer. But I can think straight and do things without embarrassing myself. All the credits go to the big guy up there for giving me this talent.

Neil started to sing along with me to the song in the radio. Umbrella by Rihanna. He didn't know a single word in the song. I really didn't give a shit about it too. We where like Jackie Chan and Owen Wilson from Shanghai Noon. Kick ass blabbering and shouting and having the best time I had in few years.

Neil was friendly enough to not try anything sneaky on me. More specifically not try anything at all on me. He was cool for me we drove more and stopped to get some gas after few more blabbering mouthfuls.

It was so sudden that I wanted to pee right when we entered the gas station. Thank God for restrooms. Right when i stepped out, I kinda lost ma balance for a few seconds. San ran to my side to help me not embarrass myself. We walk together in, did my job and returned back to ma seat.

Now it felt a bit relaxed and high at the same time.

Thank God for alcohol its so liberating.

I could make out the conversation my friends were having now.

"Yeah man, that's not a problem. We're on our way back. We can pick you up." Sean was talking to some friend of his in phone. I was totally interested in the new peeps joining our "private party". I tuned out for a few minutes. What could they be like. Will they have more beer so that we could all drink. Mainly me.

I wanted to ask Sean but decided not to it may give him unwanted misunderstanding. Am not looking for guy friends. I was lying on my back on the seat. My heat hung out of the seat the stars where better like this. I like them better now. "Hey Kelly, how is that drunk head of yours". He made sound like its true that I nearly got up and sat properly in my seat. I closed my eyes and resumed my position

"Its in La La Land kid. You must try it sometime". His chuckles made me open my eyes and look in to his brown ones. "Okay so do you mind switching seats with San and me? I'm gonna drive and some of my friends will be joining us. San is feeling a little sleepy and you could give them some company for the ride back home". I did like the idea of new friends. I just didn't want to let him have it that easily.