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Chapter 14

Ram POV

Ram - MARTHA I FUCKED UP!!! I FUCKED UP REAL BAD!!!!
Martha - Whoa! Ram! What happened?

I explained to Martha what had happened between the two of them. I had tried his hardest to hold back tears, but it worked. I spilled out his tears all over my jacket.

After Kurt had ran off with JD and Heather, I had taken Dukes red scrunchie that she valued so dearly. I tied it around my wrist and told her off. I admit, I did a pretty good job at knocking some sense into the piece of shit. I deserved a freaking medal! But what I didn't deserve was Kurt Kelly.

The truth is, Kurt and I weren't really married. We had rings so everyone thought we were. But....those were promise rings. They matched our friendship bracelets. We both loved each other, but I guess the thought of marriage never reached us no matter how much people asked us.

Kurt POV

Kurt - WWWWAAAAAHHHHH!!!!!
Veronica - Kurt....ssshh....it's going to be all right.
Kurt - Says you! Your boyfriend is here and he still loves you!
JD - *blushes*
Kurt - I even thought that he might ask me to marry him....
Veronica - YOU AREN'T MARRIED??!!
Kurt - NO!!! RAM IS A FUCKING STRAIGHT BASTARD!!!

I guess I'd never ACTUALLY broken up with Ram, but I should've. I fell under his stupid cute boy spell. I've been in it for 23 years.

Kurt - Cmon Heather. I think JD and Veronica need alone time.
Veronica - But..
HeatherM - He's right Veronica. We'll be okay.

Heather and I walked outside and into the cold air. I stroked my hand over the side of the wall. Ram had been in this same position and he had been captured by a Heather.

I looked over at Heather. She was one of the nicest people I've ever met, but she had been dating Ram once. She had kissed him before. Right in front of me sometimes. And Martha likes Ram as well, she had never gotten over him. How could I leave her to take care of ou....my dogs.

Kurt - Heather?
HeatherM - Huh?
Kurt - Can I ask you something?
HeatherM - Go for it.
Kurt - Why do you think that Ram hasn't asked me to marry him yet?
HeatherM - I don't know! I guess...some people aren't just willing to get married.
Kurt - But we spend all of our time together and people bring it up all the time. He never does anything.
HeatherM - Well why don't you do anything?
Kurt - I....Oh....I guess I never thought of it.
HeatherM - Why'd you ask me that?
Kurt - I don't know....just...I have these dreams a lot where Ram is actually straight and he's just using me and he doesn't really love me and....
HeatherM - Kurt...he loves you more than anything in the world.
Kurt - So then why did he have sex with Duke?!
HeatherM - I....I don't know. But I promise that it's all going to be okay in the end.
Kurt - I guess so.
HeatherM - We had some pretty fun times in school, huh?
Kurt - Yeah....

Flashback to 4th grade

Ram - What are we doing in the bathroom Kurt?
Kurt - *holds up 2 blue markers*
Ram - Why'd you bring that?
Kurt - So we can draw on ourselves and on the bathroom! It'll be fun!
Ram - I call making my balls blue!

Flashback to 8th grade

Everyone was over at Rams house for a Christmas party. Chandler had walked under the mistletoe the same time as Veronica. This led to some awkward moments and a couple of screams from the two boys.

Ram - A Veronica Heather sandwich! Girl on girl!
Kurt - Punch it in!
Ram - WHOOP!!!
Kurt - WHOOP!!!
Chandler - *pushes Kurt*
Veronica - *pushes Ram*

The two jocks ended their laughing fest and looked up to see the mistletoe and their best friend in front of them. The shock on the two boys faces were hilarious. Kurt rolled his his eyes but was pulled in by Ram who quickly pulled him in and let go in a second. Ram smiled and walked away while wiping his mouth.

That was the day that Kurt Kelly realised he was gay.

Flashbacks over

I'd love to stay here all night and just fantasise and relive the moments when Ram Sweeney actually loved me. I had had dreams like this before. Where Ram would hook up with one of the Heathers and leave me in the dust. Every time I had those nightmares though, I'd look over to the side of the bed and see a sleeping Ram. I always told myself that he would never do that.

But I was lying to myself.

JD POV

I honestly never thought that I would be able to see Veronica again. Now I was alone in a room with her. She hadn't posted anything on any of her social medias and I honestly worried a lot about her. I thought about her everyday and wondered if she missed me.

Veronica - JD....do you...do you still love me?
JD - I don't.....yes. I just could never let go of you and now I just feel like an idiot. Because clearly you've moved on. I just....I know you probably don't wanna take me back. And I don't blame you. After what I did to Heather....I knew that something had changed. Then Ram and Kurt started to happen and UGH!!! I'm just....I'm really sorry.
Veronica - JD, if anyone should be apologising it should be me. After I left you....I just felt like I had no one to protect me. That dumb lawyer took in your place...but I ever should've let me. He's a horrible person....and I never really felt love for him. It was always just lust.  I kept telling myself I loved him....but I didn't...I've always loved you.
JD - R....really?!
Veronica - Yeah.
JD - Do you....
Veronica - Just come here and kiss me Dean.

I did as Veronica said. It felt so right and happy to feel our lips together again. They fit together perfectly like matching puzzle pieces. I continued until I felt a tug on my jacket. I turned around to be faced with a small girl with brown hair and brown eyes. She looked just like Veronica.

Skyler - Are you my new daddy?
JD - Well...maybe. But I'm definitely hers.
Veronica - Wha....JASON!!!!
JD - WHAAA!!!

Kurt POV

I walked across the bridge. They called this place suicide bridge. I had come here with Ram once before. We just kinda hung out under the bridge and played around. I could still see the red jacket that Ram had left there after he had gotten spooked by some noise.

I grabbed a rock that was under me. I let my hand feel across the sharp point. I put the rock to the bridge and scraped something into it. It had taken me a while to do it. Surprisingly, no drivers seemed to stop to help me. To tell me that there was hope and that I shouldn't do this.

But nobody came.

I guess nobody cared about me after all. I felt a tear run down the side of my face. I stood and looked out over the edge. It was dark all around me except for the lights of cars shining on me. I stood on the edge and wondered what heaven would look like. Heaven....I mean hell.

Maybe I would see Heather Chandler. I bet the first thing she would say to me is "Well fuck me gently with a chainsaw". She always loved saying that. Lots of people thought Heather was a bad person. But she wasn't....I got to know her through out school and she actually was like the best girl friend I've ever had. But no one else bothered to see the me inside of her.

"Don't do it!!"

I was about to fall when I felt something hit the side of me. I fell onto the sidewalk on the bridge. I wasn't dead....but I was definitely going to have a bruise later.

"Why couldn't you just let me die?!"

"Because you......wait."

"Kurt?!"