Drowned Out

Prologue ( Before chapters begin )

"Ok, look I'm telling you the truth, I don't even know what to say, or how to say it, I can't seem to get the words out of my mouth to be honest. "What am I doing with my life? Do I even know who I am anymore?" No this can't be happening, no. I was supposed to stay Jayde Lilian Maybell , A freshman in college, living my life being an average, college student. I want a boyfriend, a friend at least? I want to drink alcohol for the first time, I want to dance my heart out at parties and live out my year , not looking like a hot mess or a train wreck! I am stuck in some kind of impossible puzzle that I just can't figure out the pieces to solve my phycological problem. Maybe... maybe there's no fixing it..." maybe I'm broken." Those were the very words that came out of my mouth today at the therapist. "I'm sure he thinks I'm mad, I mean if he didn't, why would he start shaking when he spoke to me, or why would he tell me not to come on Tuesdays, well that's not a problem , I come anyways. " Ok I may be crazy, but when Mrs. Linda ( the front desk worker ) tells me Mr.Starch is not in today, I can hear his voice woman! " Does she think I am deaf to!" It's not wonder my family abandoned me to boarding school. " The only person who stuck with me was my Sister. " Her name is Camryn, she's always been there for me, she doesn't care what anyone thinks of her or me, and that's why she's a great older sister! " She's a senior in college, by the way, on her way to become a Phycologist , "Thats probably why she understands me so much..."