Aspects Series: Chances of Zen

Intro

I am Zen Sariano.

In my 18 years of having this life----existing in this tortuous world, I feel like I have never done special, sa totoo lang mongha ang tawag ng mga tao sakin. Isa ako sa kakaonting numero dito sa mundo na bahay at eskwelahan lang ang pinamamalagian, literal. I am 18 and I haven't tried going out alone, going to malls, cafés, stores-- even outside of our house kaya nga kung hindi kaibigan sa school, pinsan, mga tito at tita na nakasama ko sa paglaki---- pamilya ko lang ang may alam na nag eexist ako. Minsan yung mga kapit bahay ko hindi pako kilala or hindi ko sila kilala. Ang lala no? Malala talaga.

Now that I'm entering college away from my school and friends, away from my home and family I feel scared and worried because this would be the first time that I will live on my own. For an hermet like me, paano ko mamamanage na mamuhay mag-isa? How would it look like when I expose myself to a life out of my nook---- out of my haven?