Faded (Sequel To Suicidal) [Completed]

My Cries Went Unheard

No one cares for a orphan.  No one wants a child against God. We disown you. You aren't part of our family. You are just a mutt!

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The whole world is against me. I am alone. When Mom and Dad found out I was gay, they got mad at me. They started saying all these things to me..

When Jackson left me, I was wide awake. He must of saved the food for me because Mark always yell at him for eating my food. I still don't know why I am still here. Shouldn't I be in rehab or something like that?!

I honestly don't know anymore.. I am living a life that not so many people can help me..

I watched the sunset and how beautiful the lights in the city was turning on. Everything looked perfect, like how my life could've been, but not anymore.

The night overcame day, and I was still laying on the bed. It was almost midnight, and I was still wide awake... 

I was laying on the bed and watching the bright night when:

Knock knock

Went the door.

I slowly got up and walked to the front door. I looked the pep hole, and saw the last person in this world I wanted to see. Lee Seokmin. I didn't answer, instead I walked back to my room, and held in those tears. I locked myself in my room. I waited until I was on the bed before I burst out crying. Everything was all blurry, and I made sure that I wasn't heard. I stayed cuddling my knees up to my chest. 

My tears kept shedding. All over. The covers and the pillows were wet with tears. I waited until the banging on the door stopped, before getting up and walked around the apartment to find something sharp. It was like a need to. I don't know. 

I found the blade in my bathroom. I quietly cut myself. I was so happy. Why wasn't any happy with me? Why was my life a mess? Why wouldn't anyone talk to me? I wouldn't know...

As I cut myself, I felt my eyes becoming blurry. There were tears falling to the ground. I stopped cutting and fell to the ground. I screamed and let all my cries come out. 

I wanted to die.

I wanted to be gone.

I didn't want to be here.

I didn't like this life.

I wanted to bleed to death..

I wanted to be somewhere no one would be.

I didn't need this life.

Why was I here?