Impunity

I envy her,

That girl who he spends most of his time with.

The girl whom he shares his laughter and sorrows.

The girl that his family knew so well.

The one he wouldn't think of twice of protecting.

Ano nga naman ang laban ko?

She's his best friend and I was nothing but a stranger.

I know it's wrong but I can't help it.

Whenver I see their photos together,

the posts that they tag with each other,

even those screenshots of their convos that she shares on social media.

Their trips to the cafeteria while goofing off.

How could I be that girl?

More so like,

how could I be that girl again?

Having him before was just surreal,

Josh is a really great guy -

like he is, to his best friend.

And we have lots of fun together.

He is like a sunshine in human form.

It was just sad that I couldn't not be the same to him.

It's funny that I didn't realize that he already has that someone

His sunshine, his best friend.

Seeing them together hurts,

but seeing them happy together beside me is a whole new level of pain; 

and I'm sick of competing,

no matter how hard he convince me otherwise

so I played the bad guy card,

to set him free,

'cause I know I will never be,

that girl who he spends most of his time with

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