Schizophrenia //h.s/NOT CONTINUTED

Chapter 2

[[Written By Love_God2]]

I stare up at the ceiling,feeling nothing as usual. I grab the bottle of vodka on the floor and take a gulp. I feel the liquid in my throat and look at a picture of her on my wall.She looks so happy while holding that acceptance letter. I remember that picture, it was the best day of her life. She had just gotten accepted to be a dancer and all her hard work in dancing was paying off.

~'Harry ,can you believe it !' She says looking at me ,eyes bright and shiny. She looks at the piece if paper in her hands. She shrieks again and throws her arms around me , hugging me and sniffing. I know she is crying ,but these tears aren't of sadness. She is beyond happy, and that makes me utterly happy.

'Im proud of you' I tell her. She looks back at me and smiles. A smile that would make you smile, that was another great thing about her. When she smiled big ,it would make anyone else want to smile. She was a big ball of happiness and she always made other people happy. She was amazing.

She leans in and kisses me , putting all her happiness into the kiss making me weak the knees. I wonder if she can hear how hard and fast my heart is beating. She smiles into the kiss making me go insane.'~

I raise my fingers to my lips and remember how soft her lips felt on mine. Remembering her sweet taste and how her simple touch was enough for me. I look around the room and see the holes on the wall that I made a few weeks ago. I see certain objects that belong to her. Like her dress that she was going to wear to our date where I would ask her to marry me. I was excited for that day. I still have the ring, but every time I see her and want to ask her she leaves.

Today was weird , she came to visit me but only for a little bit. I just woke up and saw her in the bathroom fixing her straight hair ,trying to pin it up but her hair refused to obey her commands. I saw how she let out a puff of annoyance and as I was about to go up to her, she looked my way. I stared at her and all she did was smirk at me while pointing to her hair. I let out a chuckle and walked up to her.All of a sudden I felt that urge again, I was going to blink. I fought against it but my eyes started burning. I felt myself panic and quickly grabbed her by the waist wanting nothing more than to feel her lips against mine before she leaves because I know she will.

I knew what was coming but time seemed to go slow and the next thing I know ,my eyes shut. I opened them quickly and saw nothing. I felt myself burn with disappointment. Stupid Harry! Couldn't I have kept my eyes open for a little more! I call out her name and look around the house. I don't even know where she leaves or how she always leaves so fast but she does. And it absolutely breaks my heart.

As I am looking around the messy house for her I hear a door open. I stand still in front of the door and see one of my friends enter the house. I smile at him even though I feel like shit. He looks at me and smiles a bit.

"Hi Harry. How are you?" He asks while examining the house. He frowns as he sees the empty bottles of beer and vodka around the room. He narrows his eyes at the holes in the walls and then looks at my hands.

"Im fine." No I'm not, she left again. "I was looking for Jess" I tell him. He looks at me with sadness in his eyes and then reaches for my arm.

"Harry , Jess isn't here.She's gone." He says slowly. I know she's gone , she left before allowing me to kiss her. She left, which is why I actually don't care if one day I leave. However I know she will be back so I wait.

"I know Louis, but she will come back.She always does. Tomorrow she'll come back and If she isn't busy maybe even today she comes to visit me again." I say with hope in my voice.

Louis then starts to tear up and before I know it he starts to cry. He holds onto me and cries into my shoulder. Why is he so sad? She will be back, I mean I'm sad that she leaves but then my heart flutters a bit knowing I'll see her again. I keep my hope.

"Harry ,please . I can't afford to see you this way. It hurts as a friend to see you like this." He sobs. To see me like what? I am only saying the truth , she'll be back for me. She would never just leave me! Never. She loves me and I love her. She always comes back , she will never ever leave me.

"Harry , it has been 3 weeks. 3 weeks! She's gone ! She isn't coming back ! Get that through your head please ! Stop suffering Harry , it hurts all of us to see how much this has messed you up. We even asked the doctor if this is normal and he said it isn't ! You are in shock! You don't want to admit she is gone , but Harry you can't keep hopping she will come back." His words anger me. She wouldn't leave me and I know she will come back because I always see her come back ! I see her , with my own eyes!

"Louis ,I see her. I know she comes back because I fucking see her !" I yell at him. For some reason theres a stab of pain in my heart and Louis words repeat in my head. 'She's gone.She isn't coming back.' Could that be true? Of course not ! I see her god dammit, maybe they just can't.

Louis starts to pull out his phone and calls someone. I walk out of the room and go to our room where me and Jess would cuddle and sleep together. Where we made love for the first time, all these happy memories are found here. I hear Louis start to talk to someone and then he says goodbye to whoever he was talking to.

I look and find Jess's dress.I pick it up , touching the fabric and imagining this on her.She would look beautfiful.

"Jess, look ! This is the dress you are going to be wearing in a week." I say ,hopping she will hear me. Maybe she is in the kitchen making me breakfast just like she used to. Wow , I miss her food.She was an amazing cook even though she denied it. I wonder why she hasn't cooked for us in a long time.

"Harry" I hear Louis say behind me. A tear makes its way down his cheek as he stares at me with pure sadness.

"Yea?" I am to busy looking at the dress. I rehearse my words that I will say to her when I propose to her next week in my head. I imagine her face light up as she sees me get down on one knee.

"Harry , I -" And then he cuts himself off as he sees me putting the dress on me and Jess' bed.

"Im going to go." He finally says. I nod and then go to the bathroom looking for something. I hear the door shut and figure that Louis has left. I look around the cabinets and finally find it. I open the box and see the shiny ring and smile to myself knowing Jess will love it. She will love it and we will get married, have kids and live happily ever after because she always comes back. She has never left me and I love her for that. I put the box in my jeans and sit in my bed ,waiting for her return.

Hi guys! I really cant thank you enough for the comments and votes. This chapter was a bit longer and I REALLY hope you like it! I wasn't so proud but I hope you are :) And we updated because we hit over 500 reads ! :0 Yay! Please know that we will be going back to school so updates may not be every day.

Please Comment and Vote! Your comments are amazing♥

PS: Should we make an updating schedule?

BTW, my authors note was shorter ;D Tell me of its better to keep it short or long