Faded (Sequel To Suicidal) [Completed]

Finally giving up..?

I finally felt my own tears. It finally came down, all over my face. I didn't want to cry. He really left because of me. He really did. We sat there in silence until the tears were dry.

"Did you even think twice when you left? Did you? Did you know how much everything hurt once you left me? Did you or no?" I whispered loud enough for him to hear.

"I s-s-sorry," He shook his head.

"I knew it," I looked outside the window.

I felt more pain in my heart. The more I listen to him, the more I was really giving up on him. His promise was the worst. He lied. I should've known.

"J-Jisoo, I really am-" He let his tears fall.

"I-I d-don't w-want t-to... H-hear i-it," I stuttered. My own tears fell. I couldn't forgive him. Ever.

"J-Jisoo plea-"

"No," I raised my voice.

His head fell and he got up. He started walking away. Like he always did.

"I really am, Jisoo. I just wished that you would forgive me easy," He said.

"I wished that you wouldn't walk away from problems like this," I whispered, "And that you could see that you aren't the only one hurt."

"I-" He looked at me, then shook his head, "I guess this is goodbye, right?"

"Goodbye, forever," I whispered. 

He left me to my own thoughts.

To be honest, I didn't want him to leave. To be honest, I wanted him to fight for our love. I wanted to keep trying to get me back. I didn't want this to be our last goodbye. Our last talk. Our last words to each other.  I was really heart broken. I was really falling apart. My whole world was really collapsing on me.

***

When I walked out the school building, I saw Seokmin with this girl. She was way more pretty than me. Seokmin was never gay. He lied to me. Everything was a lie.

His arm was around her waist. He was hugging her tightly. Like he owned her. She laughed at whatever he was saying. He smiled at her. Like they've been together for years. Her light brown hair flow down to her waist, where Seokmin's arm was. 

I walked past them, with my eyes on the sidewalk. I was about to turn the corner when Dino came up to me.

"Jisoo~Hyung! How are you?" He asked, and got a shrug as a responds.

"So, I was wondering if we could-" He smiled.

"Dino! I will kill you!" I heard some girl yell.

"Well, I shall get going!" He ran off. I was at the corner, when the girl came up to me.

"Hello, I am Kyla Massie! I was wondering if you knew who Jisoo Hong is?'' She asked, and I shrugged. This girl was looking at the boy, and she didn't even notice.

"Okay, well, see ya!" She left looking for someone.

Once I was home, I laid on my bed. Covering myself up, I put the blade close to my wrist. As I cut myself, I thought about how I was giving up on him, as he did. He was never committed, like I was. He never gave about the relationship. I should've known. He was just another memory that I kept holding onto. Someone that would end up like the rest. Someone who wouldn't care.

"Jisoo? JISOO! OMG!" I heard someone call me. My eyes were too teary. 

"Omg, Jisoo, what happened? Why do this? JACKSON GET SOME PAPER!" It was Mark, of course.

"H-he r-really... D-doesn't c-care," I coughed. My vision was going black.

"Jisoo, who? Omg, stay with me-" I heard Mark say before everything went black.

I hoped that I died, leaving everyone finally happy. Nobody would have to care about me here. About a useless trash that had no meaning in life...

I really wanted to die there.