~ Jakes POV~
Her
Her scent
Her smile
Her character
Her everything...
It all makes me sick.
It makes me sick knowing that I
trusted her. Knowing I loved her
when she didn't love me back.
We'll maybe that was a bit far. I
know she "loved" me but by her
careless actions she let that "love"
slip away.
Our love
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I eat my 3rd piece of bacon but I could still feel my stomach rumbling. But my mind wasn't focused on my bacon. My mind was else where.
Getting up from the kitchen table I carelessly put my greasy plate in the sink knowing it's my sisters night to do the dishes.
I walk up the wooden stairs and head into my room. My only plans for tonight are to finish my new addiction which is replaying the new "popular" show to watch on Netflix 13 Reasons Why. I mean what else would I do? I'm bored and lonely and I have no school for the next year of my life so might as well spend it binge watching Netflix.
I jump on my soft bed sheets and grab the remote for the TV above my bed. I press the on button and speak into the little microphone "netflix". After a few seconds my dumb TV still can't find what I'm looking for so I say it once more "NETFLIX" I scream it into the remote and suddenly the Netflix screen pops up.
Pressing onto 13 reasons why I see that I'm not even half way through it'd hard to watch this show. I feel kind of like Clay. I click onto the 2nd episode and binge watch away.
I lay my head on my pillow and devert my eyes from the screen getting lost in space. I look at the white popcorn ceiling and drift away from reality. My Mind was else where. Her is where my brain decided to take me.
She was all I could think about, once again she was the only thing on my mind. She took over my brain like a virus.
It starts slow but sooner or later she ends of being the only think I can think of, no time for anything else. If only I could just get over her.
It might be easier to forget her if she wouldn't of ended our relationship so tragically.
I don't even know why she had to go to his house. I don't know why she had to spend the night with him and forget everything we had, everything we made. But you know what I'm over it because now that I think of it, she was never worth it. But then again she really was.
Her being on my mind all the time is something I can get over. Over fast hopefully.
~Camila POV~
Jake
His smile
His scent
His personality
His everything...
It makes me feel guilty
It makes me feel guilty that I took
Advantage of my sweet boy who
Cared so much about me, and loved
Me but all I did was use him up like
He was an object.My Careless actions
made that love slip away.
Our love
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I look out my window for the 3rd time today praying that i'll be seeing Jakes car pulling up at my drive way but every time I check my drive way is empty, kind of like me.
I think I'm still in disbelief, it's only been 2 weeks since he found out my dirty secrets so that would make sense. It's part of stages of grief.
I hate this so much! This feeling is insane. I finally figured out the truth or at least the story everyone has been hiding.
Do you know what I'm talking about? No, not my story well it's not really a story at all more of a comforting lie your loved ones tell you to keep you going strong. It never really works.
You know it, how they say that you aren't alone or how there are other people just like you in the same position in other words "you'll never be alone" well, it's all bullshit hate you to break it to you but your alone.
All alone:(
HOW DO YOU GUYS LIKE THIS IM TRYING TO MIX SONGS AND THEIR ACTUAL MEANINGS INTO A BOOK AND I CANT REALLY EXPLAIN IT BUT DO YOU LIKE IT?
-leah🖤
