Mother I want tou be just like you. I want to know the thrill of the meth, the excitement you feel when you do it. I want to have a man that can show me how strong I really am. I want to live and survive off the governments money, instead of work a good paying job.I want to know what its like not to see your kisd at all. I want to know this true happiness you feel. Mommy I want to be just like you...
Now I really want to know what I used to know, the real you. You dont know how much pain you cause me. I know you never wanted me, I know you trusted everyone you came across, because you trusted them with me. You used to be there every weekend. Now yur only there when you fight with Ashley. You have really let me down. I now cry just about every night because i think of the times when me and you would laugh together, have our mother daughter time together. But now all you care about is a man and a high, your "true love", How many true loves have you had? My father? definatly not! Ashley and Davids father? No because you left your kids alone. You havnt been a true mother to me or them. Now that im old enough to know right from wrong I know what you do and how you live. It hurts your family. But I guess you dont have a family any more. I feel like I dont have a mother, actually I dont, and and ive never had a father. You mess up big time. and me i was a mistake. How many times have you told yourself that? Probaly every day. You used to be my role model and i used to trust you all the time now ii feel like i cant trust anyone anymore. People have hurt me and lied to me. That what my own mother does to me now! WHY?! Im 16 years old and i dont have a mother. Now is the time I really need you! But your still not here! I guess im lonely without you! I will Grow up alone without your guidence! Maybe one day you will see what your doing wrong...
Emo Heart,
Alison Kathryn!
