Big idiot [NaLu]

8: Is the stork on its way?

HI! I'm back! And happy Easter! This is a very short chapter (is it?) but I'm already writing on the ninth. In the future I have to edit all the old chapters. The spelling is all wrong and everything is wrong! I won't change them any other way because they are like memories of me growing up (don't question my logic.)

Nausea overwhelms me. Not the kind I had before, not because of food or smell. I wasn't safe. Just the thought of it made my whole body tremble in fear. So I tried not to think too much over it. Welp, good luck this can change your life. I shouldn't be talking to myself like this. Anyhow, I was stressed over beyond. Levy was in my kitchen making some tea for us and Erza she was...Buying pregnancy tests. Those tiny things would decide my future, or at least show what was already decided. That thought was disturbing to me, it was already too late. Even if I told the world I didn't want to, it was already done and no turning back. I made a big mistake and now I have to pay for it.

"Yea, she fell ill and we followed her home." Levy could be heard talking to Mira on through her phone. The only sound that could be heard was the water boiling. Footsteps ran through the kitchen and more talking.

"Don't tease me, I didn't want to just leave her, so both of us went and I know I wouldn't be much off helping her with the balance. Yea, we took a Taxi to her home." She continues to make some small talk. Her voice calmed me down, she didn't seem to have any panic or regret at all. Sure it wasn't her future but I hope she would have been at least a little concern if she thought there was any danger. She walked in with a small heartwarming smile and two tea mugs filled with my favorite tea. She placed both of them on the small coffee table before she used her right hand to pick up the phone she had been keeping pressed between her ear and shoulder.

"Mm, I tell her that. See you tomorrow." She ended the call before she put her red phone back in her pocket. She sat herself on the opposite side from me only with the small table and our steaming hot mugs separating us. She looked up at me still smiling, maybe she just smiled for my sake. I wasn't in the state to decide which was right as I was busy stopping all the panic that wanted to reach the surface.

"Here you go, be careful it's hot." She stated as she pushes the mug towards me. I pick it up with both my hands. I bring it up to my lips but before I take a sip I carefully blow over the teas surface. The warm liquid heat up my insides. I feel exhausted and my shaking starts to give up. I put down the warming cup on my tights still holding it with both of my hands. The lingering warm crept up my arms and I sighed. I looked up at Levy with tired eyes. She didn't seem as exhausted as me, I bet my stress has taking some god dam good years of my life by now.

"It will be alright Lu-chan, I promise." She continued. How could she just promise something so big like it was nothing, it didn't even seem like she had even considered the possibilities. It wasn't her future at stake. Stop, you're just making things up, don't take out your panic on poor Levy.

"I know, I know. But I can't help it! Just thinking about it makes me want to..." Vomit, I told herself. It makes me shake in fear and anxiety, I feel ill and my hands feel sticky.

The clock was slowly ricking, and thirty minutes after Erza had left she was back again. A loud knock was heard from the hall and Levy stood up to answer. Inside of me I hoped that it was someone else. I hoped time would stop. I hoped the door would get stuck. I hoped the world would turn into a black hole. But hopes and wishes were so distant for me and reality stood beside Erza when she walked in, a white plastic bag dangled from her right hand.

"I bought a few of them." Was all she said before she continued. Her breathe was a little shaky as if she ran here.

"The cashier looked at me funny, I thought people only exaggerated when they sad so." She joked. Her small attempt to sheer me up was warming to heart as a small smiled played on my lips. Even if I felt like I was going to faint at this very moment I stood up and walked up to Erza.

"Let's do this."

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"You were so nervous you almost died minuets ago, how can that turn to such a hysterical state!" That was Levy, yet again outside my bathroom door. The same bathroom, same situation, only slightly different outcome.

Slightly.

I was, just as Levy said, in a hysterical state. Was it panic? Stubbornness? Pure destruction of mind? I don't really know.

"They are wrong Levy! They must all be broken!" That is me, on the inside of the door, screaming. Like I said the outcome looks pretty similar to my previous experience of pregnancy testing. But this time the whole screaming thing had a different cause. You see, all the test showed my biggest fear I had at the moment and stuck it right into my face to look at it.

They said I was pregnant.

Ha, me?

Don't think so.

"O my god Lucy just come out!" I could hear how she turned to talk to another person, namely Erza.

"She's out of her mind, is this the hormone thing everybody says happens?" No, no, no, no. I do not have 'this hormone thing' everybody says happens.

"I'm not pregnant!" I screamed as loud as I could.

"YES YOU ARE! Come out!" after more bickering back and forth I came out, defeated I opened the door only to stare down at my friend. Blue hair framed a pair of angry eyes trying to pierce my soul. I stood my ground, staring back at her. Why was she doing this to me, I'm... I'm not pregnant. I can't be. Why is she telling me that, why is she lying. Why are they all lying? I felt a lump in my throat, clinging persistent even when I tried to swallow it. It burnt so bad. Levy's eyes softened as she looked over me, pitying me. She stepped forward closing the distance that was left between us. She lifted her arms up and I could feel warmth wrap around me as she embraced me into a hug.

"What should I do..." My voice was only a quiet whisper, not even representing in the slightest the void I felt building up inside of me. Levy hushed me as she started to pet my head, dragging her fingers threw my messy hair.

"Shh, it's alright baby, it's going to be okay." She to whispered, her voice full of love and comfort. I felt like breaking. That night I felt like the baby inside of me was breaking.

Haha done. Shit chapter I know, but it's hard writing about it when I only want to move on to what happens next! Comment of there is anything you want to know or any ideas you have for the story. Have a good Easter!