Dear heart, why him? (#WATTYS2018)

Chapter 4

I couldn't stay focused in class, no matter how hard I tried.

 All I could think about was that poor girl who killed herself and Alison. It seems I can't get away from my past no matter how hard I try. Another reason why I couldn't stay focused is that I could still feel him burning holes in the back of my head. This boy isn't going to give up no matter how hard I try.

On a plus, I did find out the name of the boy sitting next to me. 

Zack Simmons. 

He seems like a good guy, a guy I could see myself being friends with. He doesn't seem to like Jessica and her group of friends which has me wondering if my judgement was correct. Part of me was hoping to be wrong as I can't hide the fact that I am attracted to Justin, I mean who wouldn't be?

The question is do I stay the girl I was back at my old high school?

 The shy girl who kept herself to herself or take Alison's advice and live a little. 

Should I give Justin and the rest of them a chance? 

Play it safe or take a risk? 

God how I wish Alison was here but then again if she was I bet Justin would be all for her and I would be all for Zack. But she isn't here and I'm not sure what to do.

Lost in thought I hadn't realised class had ended until Zack nudges me, I really need to stop spacing out.

"You looked lost in wonderland" I look towards Zack, he's smiling trying his hardest not to laugh in my face. How embarrassing.

 "Yeah, I was, thanks for bringing me back to reality"

 At this, he laughs and I find myself laughing with him.

 Zacks one of the good guys, one of the guys your parents want you to bring home and be proud that their little girl has found one of the good guys.

The day seems to fly by and before I know it it's lunchtime. Walking towards the cafeteria and lining up to get some well-deserved food I notice how different this school is to my old one back in England. All the different groups, it's all so cliche. 

You have your main group which are the kings and queens of the school well so they think anyway. 

Jocks and cheerleaders major eye roll. 

Then you have the bookworms who study hard.

 The drama group and the list goes on but little do these guys know that once school is done everything they think is important won't be.

Finally getting my food which consists of a big greasy burger with a side of fries and of course a bottle of water.

 I look around the cafe for a seat. Scanning the cafe I lock eyes with Zack and as I go to approach him I hear my name being called.

 Jessica and the rest of her friends are looking at me waiting for me to approach. Now I'm stuck, do I go sit with the good guy who I like or sit with the guys I've been avoiding since I started school? 

Before I can even make my own decision I feel someone put their arm around me. 

"Joining us for lunch Nor?' 

That voice, that bloody voice I've been trying to stay clear from, so cocky and smug. Turning to face Justin who may I add is smirking at me.

 'Well I was kind of thinking about sitting with Zack"

 This made that smug look fall right off his face.

I watch as he turns to look over to Zacks direction, he's thinking hard about something and I'm not sure if I like it.