Reasons she left me

Disc 1: part 1

Jacob:
The clouds parted as I walked down my driveway in the direction of the bus stop. I looked both ways before crossing the street; the way she had not. For she had been blinded, every bone and memory...shattered...

I walked in fear, every step I took seemed to crack the ground. The constant stares I received. And the comments along with the stares.

My state of mind was interrupted by a tap on my shoulder. I snapped into reality and saw my friend Tony standing there.
"Jacob you need to get to class, first period is already over.. you've been standing at your locker for about forty five minutes."

His hazel eyes sparkled with curiosity. I nodded and felt my stomach flip flop a bit. I walked passed him silently and he just stared. That was all anyone ever did now a days...They stared... The cold feeling in my stomach gradually increased to a sharp pain. My skin turned red, my body temperature rising drastically.. I looked around my vision blurring, looking for her..
I snapped my head to the right in the direction of her locker and there she was. Looking at me with concern, my breath hitched and I screamed,
"MIAAA!!!"
I shot up out of my bed full of sweat. I was gasping for air, I heard footsteps outside my door. My mother and father burst inside and ran over to me. My body was shaking violently and my forehead was dripping with sweat. My father gripped onto my shoulders and shook me a bit, "Jacob!!" He yelled and I snapped out of the trance.
I looked at him hopelessly, his blue eyes settled me down. They always did...it's like you could get lost in them..
"Get ready for school..." my mother hugged me and my father stressfully walked out. I sighed and shook my head, placing it in my hands. The tears slipped down my cheeks and I cried. I miss her, I miss Mia. Life wasn't the same without her...
I got out of bed and went to take a shower. The house was quiet, I took my shower and then got dressed. When finished, I ran down the stairs to have breakfast. My parents were sitting at the table, they were mumbling something. Realizing that they didn't notice me, I listened..." he's lost his mind, ever since his girlfriend.." my mom whispered," honey what if I killed myself?...you've got to see it from his perspective..he lost her and he loved her." My dad softly tried to convince my mother but she wouldn't listen..
I looked at them and they were staring at me with horrified expressions on their faces. I shook my head and walked out the house, skipping breakfast. My head was screaming at me 'you think you're strong!! You can't face life without God!!' ... "NO I CAN'T FACE IT WITHOUT MIA!! I shouted. I looked around embarrassed and people were obviously staring.

"Don't any of you have anything better to do?!" I shouted angrily. The people scattered about and I walked to school, I pulled out my phone and tapped on the messages her and I sent to each other. I read our last conversation, it was a fight.. She found out that I had a drunk affair with her best friend Bella. She was pissed but she gave me another chance. I didn't mean to cheat on her, I loved Mia..
And the saddest part was, that I lost both my love and my friend. Jeff Atkins died in a car accident, I couldn't stand him being gone. He meant so much to me.. just like Mia did...
I walked into school ignoring everybody around me, I noticed Tony standing there with a box in his hands. I walked up to him cand punched him in the shoulder playfully.
" what do you have there?" I asked curiously examining the box. He sighed and walked closer to me, "it's for you actually.." he gave me the box and patted me on my back. I was hoping it wasn't like the tapes Hannah Baker gave to Clay Jensen. That guy was destroyed after hearing them. I took the box and opened it, there were twenty disks in the box. All wrapped in a case and bubble wrap. My stomach lurched and sweat dropped down my forehead.

"Tony are these going to mess me up?" I looked at him and he sighed.
"The only way to find out is to watch them Jake.." he waved and then walked back to his red mustang. I put the package in my back pack and walked to class. I sat down in my assigned seat and received more stares from people. I looked like shit.. I'll admit it..I looked up at one particular person. Clay Jensen was staring at me with a sympathetic look. Mia died two weeks ago.. everyone was still trying to process it. I nodded at him and he nodded back. The teacher came in and handed us our tests back. My score was a C-. "Jacob your grades have been gradually dropping.. your a straight A student.. is everything alright?.." my teacher looked at me with concern. I nodded,"everything is just fresh.. I'll
pick it back up I promise Mrs. Oaks.." I nodded and crumbled up my test.
After class I walked into the hallways, I tried not to stress about the discs in my bag. I went to the gym for basketball practice, the team started to hate me ever since I found out I was better than most of them. I changed in the locker room and walked back out to find coach scolding the team.
"Why can't any of you listen?! It's like the only one who does is Jacob!" He yelled and pointed at me.
"Since Jacob is so good, why doesn't he play all of the games by himself yeah? Sound good, coach?.." Justin sneered and threw his jersey on the floor along with the rest of the team except Zach. The boys walked out all purposely shoving my shoulder. "Real smoke guys." I mumbled and walked torwards coach. The coach threw his clip board across the room and stormed out. Zack and I looked at each other. "So much for a basketball team.." he chuckled. "I know.." we laughed. "I guess we should go grab a bite for this period then?" He offered and I nodded. I grabbed my stuff and changed, "the foods on me.." Zach smiled and we both walked out.
The lunch was great while it lasted, we got back to the school and separated to our next periods.

School was done and so was my fake act for the day. I went home and into my room. I opened the disc box and pulled disc one out. I put it into my DVD player and sat in front of my T.V
The screen flickered and then I saw Mia sitting in front of me the on the screen. She then spoke
"You're probably wondering why I'm filming myself but we'll get to that, I'm here, alive, and working.. you may think I'm a copy cat for doing something similar to what Hannah Baker did. But hey.. she's got some pretty good ideas for a dead girl.." Mia chuckled and then looked back at the camera," anyways, I'm here to tell you why I killed myself, why it happened... who caused me to do it.. if you're on these discs you did something wrong.. I'm going to tell you about the first person who did something to me, Bella... turns out your back to school party was a fucking nightmare!."

FLASHBACK:
Third person Pov:
Mia finished getting ready for the party her boyfriend forced her to go to, she looked at herself in the mirror one last time before leaving. "I'll always look disgusting.." she whispered and started walking to the party. Once she got there she stood from afar watching people go into the party and out of the party. She carefully walked to the front door being created by Jeff Atkins. To admit Jeff was cute, Mia crushed on him for a while until she met Jacob. Speaking of Jacob she didn't see him anywhere, "Jeff have you seen Jacob?.." Mia smiled and bit her lip lightly and nervously. He nodded and pointed inside the house at Jacob, Mia smiled and walked inside. Jacob seemed to be in conversation with someone. Mia stopped in her place noticing he wasn't talking he was dancing. He seemed drunk because Jacob never danced. Mia walked over to him and he was grinding with her best friend Bella.. Mia tapped his shoulder and he turned to her. "Hey babe..join the party.." he slurred and wrapped his arm around her. Mia shoved his arm off and she walked out to Jeff, "why didn't you tell me?.." tears streamed down her face and he sighed. "I wanted you to find out by yourself.." he hugged her and they both got into his car and left. Mia looked at Jeff who didn't seem to be drunk, "take me to the park Jeff.." she sighed and he nodded turning left into the park. They both got out and went to the swings. Jeff stood behind Mia and began to push her on the swings  she smiled and laughed," Jeff what are you doing?.." she giggled and he stopped the swings. She turned around and looked into his eyes, " Jeff.." he leaned in and kissed her.. she kissed back and he picked her up wrapping his arms around her waist. After some time they both parted and went their separate ways. She walked home feeling guilt, he drove home feeling happy...
End of flashback~
Jacobs POV:
Tears streamed down my face as I continued listening to the reasons Bella killed my girlfriend and I fell asleep listening..