Confusion

CHAPTER 1: THE BEGINNING

*sigh*

First day as a Freshman. I think I'm ready. I stood at my front door deciding whether to open it or not. I finally did. I sat on the train and listened to my favorite song, "Bitch" by E-40 and Too Short. It's not that I was scared just didnt know if I was ready. I'll be fine, made it this far.

I walked into the building saw tons of kids bustling everywhere. I spotted my friend Jayy, she made me feel relived. The bell rang, time for first period. My algebra teacher smelled like booty flakes and struggle and had the strongest accent ever. Then I had a class called speech and communications.  Tf is that, I speak pretty good English. Class didnt turn out to be so bad. Then the bell rang, finally lunch.

I spotted two of my friends Rushon and Micah sitting at a table. A cute boy who introduced himself as Josh came over to talk to Rushon. Now I'm not a people person but Rushon forced me to introduce myself. He didnt get my name right and I got frustrated. If he wasn't cute idda punched him. The rest of the day was a drag. I got home and shoved all of the syllabi into my mom's face and went to my room, I didn't want to fight tonight. She frustrated me. I showered and talked to Jayy about tomorrow.  First day of band practice. I'd wanted to be in a marching band forever and a day and she wanted to dance. I slept dreaming about music.

CHAPTER 2: FEELINGS??

The school day was a blur, I looked forward to practice. Finally, 9th period ended I rushed to the band hall with Jayy and Rushon. Once we got there Jayy and I took seats along the wall. A tall pudgy lightskinned man began to speak about what the band required but I wasn't focused. I was looking at the members of the band. I wanted to play tenor drum. The drumline looked small, yet the whole band was small. I looked over the horn line, remembering my days playing trumbone and trumpet. A boy on the hornline caught my eye. He was kinda chubby but still really cute. He had cute big eyes and cornrows. I died for guys with maintained hair. I leaned over to Jayy to talk about this guy. She told me his name was Ryan. Then the man talking pointed at me and asked me my name and what I wanted to play. As I was speaking, a tall darkskin boy on snare said "She look like a percussionist" The man looked back at me "Is that true?" I responded with yes. My best friend Jordan said the same.

We were directed to a room next to the band hall. The rest of the drumline followed. The tall darkskin boy stood in the front of the room the rest of the drumline formed a box around the room. "My name is Alex and as you can see, I play snare. I am one of the leaders of Hail and Thunder Percussion. " Another boy, kinda pudgy yet very attractive took Alex's place in the front of the room. "My name is Darell, and I play well everything. I am another leader of Hail and Thunder Percussion." A short brownskinned girl came forward next "My name is Gloria, I play bass drum. I am the last leader of Hail and Thunder Percussion. Introduce yourselves. Your name, age, grade, and what you want to play." Jordan went first "My name is Jordan, I'm 14 years old.  I'm a freshman and I want to play snare." Alex pointed him towards a skinny lightskinned boy wearing a snare drum. Alex pointed towards me. "Now you." "My name is Drea, I'm a freshman. I want to play tenor drum..." Alex cut me off. He pulled Darell and they both walked towards me. "Yoo bro she don't look like Tonya???" Alex said. "Tonya?? Who tf is that?? I look like me" I said to myself. The boys began to laugh. Darell turned to me "Change of plans. You look like Tonya, I'm putting you on cymbals." I looked over at the girl next to her with a pair of cymbals in her hand. She smiled at me. I returned. Darell handed me a pair of cymbals and told Lisa (the cymbal player) to teach me. We walked into the hallway, there he was. Ryan. He looked over at me and then tapped his friend and nodded towards me. His friend nodded his head as if to say not bad. Lisa took me into a staircase and began to teach me how to hold and play my cymbals. She was rough but I could take it. After she felt I made progress, we returned to the room. The drumline began to play. Lisa told me what to play and exactly when to play it. Alex looked impressed. The tall man poked his head into the room "Full band time!!!!!"

We returned to the band hall. I saw him again, Ryan. He's so cute, I wanted to touch his hair. Lisa taught me the different stances, parade rest and attention. I caught on easily. It was time to play. Different songs were called out. I copied Lisa and she told me when it was time to do alternates. I enjoyed it. Finally band practice was over. I took Lisa's and my cymbals and put them into a bag. We returned to the room to its original state.

Everyone was outside by the time the drumline came down. Alex pulled me over and asked me for my Facebook.  He added me and added me to two different pages. One for the band, one for the drumline. I started getting introduced to people. The band is so close. I felt great to finally be apart of it. Ryan walked over to the drumline. He began to play fight with Lisa and Gloria. When they stopped he turned to me. "My name's Ryan,  trumpet player." I shook his hand. I looked over at Jayy, she was ready to leave. I said my goodbyes. As we walked to the train Jayy said " I saw you and Ryan over there." I looked over at her "It was a handshake, what are you seeing??" I asked. "A handshake is the beginning." she replied.

I got home and took a shower and layed down. I haven't had so many friend requests at once.  I saw him, Ryan's request. My heart fluttered. I'd never been so excited in my life. I went to sleep and thought about him.

CHAPTER 3: LOVE AND WAR

The days passed, I got better on my cymbals. I got to know the drumline. A bunch of psycho yet very close knit people. They had their own circle almost and you had to be initiated to be let in. Ryan and I didn't speak as much as I wanted us to but the small conversations were enough.  The cute hi's and bye's, the faces, the smiles. "He's probably just being nice. There's no way he would like me." I said to a tenor drummer named Allison. "Do you want me to talk to him for you??" she asked me. "Sure why not what's the worst that could happen??" Allison pulled Ryan aside and talked to him. I turned and talked to Jayy about her boyfriend Ty. I met Ty a while back and after Jayy's hard break up at the start of summer, I decided it was time for her to move on. "How are you and Ty??" I asked her. "Amazing, thanks for hooking us up!!! He's the sweetest guy ever!! And he's so tall and strong and handsome. But I'm not gonna fall in love with him. "It