deep inside the mind of me

A normal persons mind wanders, but me I stagger around drunk off of what ever I'm feeling, today it's confusion and regret the cheap bottom shelf stuff if only I could get the top shelf stuff like love and happiness I've only had it a couple times with the assistance of others. My journey usually begins at the bar with Bill the bartender he's such a caring soul always trying to make me feel better but it doesn't always work because of Scott oh boy Scott always there to remind me of my fails in life continuously asking me when I'm going to bite the dust telling me that it should happen soon because I'll never reach the topshelf. if Bill wasn't there I don't know if I would be alive the nicest thing Bill has ever done was put up a picture of her the one that keeps outside me going as long she's okay we're okay that sounds confusing but just go with it. Woah I've been talking about nonsense this whole time I forgot to introduce myself hi I'm Finn the inner voice, the mind, the "big guy upstairs" and no not "god"

I'm the one that makes the decisions, the little voice in your head that you use to read to yourself with everybody has one and sometimes you talk us don't pretend that you don't. We're the ones who create everything in your minds from imaginary friends to far away lands We do it all just for you, as you grow older some of you lose us and others keep us around for whatever reason it's up to them. I worry about those who don't use us because their mind becomes a dark and dangerous place and their little voice just dies off leaving the person stuck not knowing what to do with themselves causing them to lash out and behave violently, but enough about that this is Amir's story or should I say mine or ours I don't really know he's doing all of the writing.

This is chapter one of a very long book I would really appreciate some support, and if you're wondering why there is little to no proper punctuation well that's just me

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