i kissed my own sister( new and updated)

No more breaking hearts

Beep....
Beep....
Beep...

Those are my messages.. They have been ringing since yesterday... Really not in the mood of answering or even talking to  anyone.
I lay on my bed looking at my ceiling and sighed
This was going to be my life for the whole of forever i guess... I can't break my mother's heart and leave of course and the fact that i need money to run and as of right now i have plenty of nothing.
Beside me also lay my camera which made my sighs grow louder.. Mom gifted me that camera when she learned i had a passion for photography.

I was so depressed that the camera which i had for the past 8 years started to look brand new and i got so lost into it that i didn't hear a knock on my door not even when the knocks got louder and fasted ...
But what i did hear was my name being yelled so  loudly that it startled me and thanks to that i fell off my bed and landed with a thump on my butt and head.
"Ah" i mumbled in pain as i lay down on the ground.
I heard the door open ... I heard footsteps...
I tilt my head a bit hoping to see Jessie and wishing she would help me up...
The face i saw brought back the pain, the sighs and the depression in one look.
It was my mother.

"We need to talk, get up" that was my mother...
"A little help would be nice thank you..." I mumbled
"What"she sat down on my bed and waited for me to get up and do the same ...
" Nothing " i said taking a sit beside her.

My mother held my hand and for the first time said like a mother " you really wanna go?"
This sudden change of my mother shocked me but i had to reply fast before she changes her mind.
" umm yah .. But you know if you don't wanna let me go then its fine"
No its not .. Mummy let me go...
"Hey i know you.. Its not fine ..
And you are right you do need a little freedom" she said taking my camera into her hands .." Its just you remind me so much of your father" a tear fell as she held the camera tight ..
" umm dad was also a photographer"
"Yesh baby ... And i am sorry you never got the chance to see him"and then one tear became a monsoon of tears.
"Hey its ok" taking the camera off her hands and sitting more closely to her"he left us .. You didn't leave"
She looked me in surprise
"Jessie told me"
"Huh.. " mum gave a smile and wiped her tears " well that Jessie .."she got up to leave and as she was leaving her said "oh and sweetie pack your bags your bus leaves in two hours"