The Part Of Me I Didn't Know (Not Done)

Chapter Three

That girl. What was her objective there yesterday? She said she would go there to hang out with a friend, but she barely talked with her. Was she just an extrovert or did she really had interest in something else? I really need to get my life going. And study. Fuck. I'll just try to message her later tonight, but how do I do it? I have no fucking experience in starting conversations. And I can't just ask someone how to do it. Or can I? Who am I going ask it then? Guess I'll just speak to my cousin. She must know what I can do. Emily is quite sociable but not an actual extrovert, I guess.
I'll do it later. I really need to study now. Thirty minutes have passed and I'm still on my bed thinking. Got to get up.

My mother asked during breakfast why I was so distracted. I couldn't say that it is because things have changed in my life. So I lied telling her that I was thinking about studies. She believed. Lying is so easy. Not only to her but for almost everyone actually. All the lies I told people believed. I don't remember anyone contesting them. Or that is what I think. No, if people didn't believe they would look like they did. There. Something I can do good that doesn't take much too energy from me. Too bad that doesn't bring ant benefits on the long run. Guess I'll have to stick with the truth for most cases. Even though a lie sometimes won't hurt.

During the rest of the day I studied. And the time to message Chloe came. I forgot to ask my Emily what topics to start conversations. Fuck. And I can't ask her now because she's doing a test until 8 PM. I'm going to have to stick with the ones of last night. I really hope they don't end up in nothing. I have lost so many great conversations because I couldn't keep it going. I just hope that that doesn't happen this time. She seems nice and is someone that can make the hard work of talking for me.

It's 18:31. The time I had chosen has passed. I'm procrastinating here on my bed with my phone on my hand and no idea how to start a conversation. Fuck. I need to do something. I'm just going to start with a 'hi, it's me, that guy from yesterday'. I hope it works. Message sent. Shouldn't have started like that. Now it's too late and have to wait. I can't reply too quickly, otherwise I'll look desperate. And I can't asnwer too slowly, otherwise I'll look like I have no interest. Ten minutes from now I will get my phone . I don't think that's too long to reply. Those ten minutes have passed and still nothing. Probably she didn't have interest in me. And was... The phone ringed. She replied. I shouldn't get nervous. It's just like any other conversation. But this time I'm starting it. And it will probably depend on me to keep going. So many responsibilities. I really hope she can do the hard part for me. She's an extrovert. She will do it. She replied with a 'hi james, how are you?'. I think I can keep it going from now on.

It was about midnight when she said she needed to go to sleep. We talked a lot. And by a lot, I mean, a lot. Topics just came easily and both of us could create new ones. I basically kept my phone on my hand the whole night. She is pretty nice and understanding. Looks like this will go foward. Now I need to chose if I will want a short or long term relationship. The approach is different for each way. I better go to sleep now. It's late and nothing good happens after two AM.

It's 8:12 AM. I woke up with a message from her. I forgot to mute my phone. Fuck. And I know I won't get to sleep again. I'm going to be tired all day. Studying today will be hard. I think I will take the day off. But what can I do outside home? No one gones out on sundays. And I can't just ask Chloe out. It's too soon. And going out with family sucks. I'm going to have to ask people out. How do I do it? I just message asking? It can't be that simple. Again I'll have to try it for myself. I'm calling Bernard, and he will probably bring his girlfriend, Anne, and Dylan. I think I'll call them to go to the cinema. That will probably be by late afternoon. The problem now is what I'm going to the rest of the day. I still haven't watched the sixth season of Game of Thrones even though it was released months ago. I just forgot to watch it.

I managed to watch four episodes before lunch. It is really great so far. Dylan, Bernard and Anne said they would go but she would bring a friend. We'll be meeting there at 17:30 So I will be able to watch another three episodes or less.

Around 16:30 I took a shower. I could only watch one episode, because was talking to Chloe. He really get well along. But I still don't think we will get far. She came to me out of nowhere. I don't think that's how relationships start. But again, I might be wrong. Anyway, Dylan will be asking about her later today and I don't think I'm ready to tell all these things. I really don't know where this relationship with her is going because, like I said, I don't think that's people meet. I'm going to lie to him. Tell we only talked a litte but say that she looks interesting. This way I guess I can dodge more questions.

After the film we went to Pizza Hut. I shouldn't eating this kind of thing but, as today is my day off I think I can eat it. While we waited Dylan asked about Chloe, like I said.
- So, did you keep talking to Chloe?
- Yeah, I did.
- So...?
- She is quite nice. But I don't know if this is going somewhere.
- Why? What do you mean?
- I don't think that's how people meet. I mean, the last girl I dated we met two months before we made out. And we talked consistently during that time.
Dylan looked at me with a weird face.
- You really have no idea how things work. Here's my tip for you. Just keep talking to her like you had. And, some day this week, ask her out. You choose where to go. Alright?
I was sceptical about this. But he has much more experience than I do, so I will follow this advice.
- Alright.
- And again, let me know if something else happens.
A while after that I went home. Tomorrow I have school, so I need to sleep early. I don't think I'll be able to watch an episode. I guess I'm gonna talk to Chloe until I sleep.