I scream at you
NO
Don't touch me
Leave me alone
Get off!
But you don't listen, you never do
Why would you?
I'm nothing
A twig for your games
You are twice the size of me
Three times as strong as me
There. Is. No. Point
Anything I do to try and stop you is useless
You dominate me
You control me
You fuck with my mind and body till I am nothing but an empty shell
With a smile and a cheerful giggle
You are my attacker
My assaulter
My rapist
The reason I no longer trust the people that "love me"
The reason I don't trust myself
The reason I don't love myself
People say don't let him control you anymore
Don't let him fill you mind with useless thoughts of self pity, depression, and suicide
I ask though how can I not?
He stole what should be mine
He invade my safe space
Controlled my thoughts
Used my emotions and trust as puppets to put on his own private shows
And when he got bored
He lied to abuse my love
My trust to entertain himself
While I was in hysterics because my first crush
My first love
My first everything was describing the way his blood
His life giving liquid
Felt flowing out of his wrists that he slit
Because I didn't make him happy that day
Didn't please him
Didn't bend to his every wim...
