In the Beginning God

2 What Really Exists

In the end I came to the Bible and I read, “In the beginning God . . .” and it took a very long time but I finally realized God made everything even nothing, the no place for him and the everyplace he is.  When I understood nothing the only way we can now, I imagine something and it being destroyed.  I cannot imagine a place for it, for it is no more.  But, in my mind I can believe a place very nearly the same, a place that I cannot even imagine that was where everything else was not to begin with, but that it was not is not now because everything else has taken its place.  We all existed there, and God still exists there where there is no place now and where the only place that was thought to be was and no place really existed there other than in our minds and the mind of God also.

There was nothing to be seen in that place in my mind, the place I can’t really even imagine being.  But I know it was whatever it was, for what it was cannot be stated but must be experienced.  It is like trying to hear silence or to touch a reflection.  We say there is nothing there, and we mean it, but we cannot know what it is exactly and communicate it.  We must just give it a name and go about our business unable to express what it is, but merely that it is not anything we can understand, or comprehend, or for that matter apprehend either.

Everything I sense is of the same nature.  I can anticipate the coming of something like a ball into my immediate area in the future. When it gets here I can make a good enough guess as to where it will be to grasp the thing, and have it in my hand; touching it, seeing it, even perhaps tasting it should I lick it, or hear it hit my hand and most certainly smell it, but actually I may or may not do any of that.  You see time moves so fast we cannot actually experience the moment of time that we exist in, if in fact we exist at all as a physical thing.  The proverbial now is then as elusive as the proverbial nothing that existed before everything else and may yet exist after everything else is gone.  We know they both exist but we cannot actually prove it.  We may, and even can prove it in all other ways but what the substance of everything is we have to make an educated guess about.  And it works for us, for the aforementioned ball needs to be caught if it is heading towards our bodies or our bodies will experience pain.  For it is possible we do not, and only our bodies actually experience physical pain, with us experiencing only the fact it makes us uncomfortable to have our bodies in pain.  What I am actually saying I guess is that nothing would be all that really exists except that everything may not exist by definition when what we mean by nothing is the absence of anything that actually physically exists even if we include space as a part of it.  For space is almost as elusive as now, and nothing, for we cannot indeed sense it except by default, there being nothing between any two actually existing things but that we again have to give a name and leave it at that. 

For example we say that space exists, but we do not know that there actually is distance between any two objects that are said to take up space.  The two things may actually be nothing, space may actually be nothing and nothing we have already discussed as being as elusive as now which may or may not exist though we theorize it does exist.  But to speak of such things is hardly expedient. 

It should suffice to say God made it all it is, and us all that we are, and what we are is as a reflection; no substance, no actual existence but merely the fooling of the senses of our bodies to surmise things are real that are physical when actually only the spiritual is really continually experienced.  For even the mind takes a brief period of time to realize the spiritual the same as it does the physical, with the spiritual existing as the point of view between both the physical and that which exists only as one experiences it in time.

As an example of what I mean, should I imagine, with or without God’s help, the precise conditions existing on Venus to a point so real to me it is as if I were there, spiritually I experienced it, though I never occupied any space there and actually therefore spent no quantity of time there either and yet I was there in the only sense that I can know anything being essentially a spiritual being in the first place.  And therefore that may be all there is to astral projection or out of body experiences neither of which perhaps require an astral body per se, for there was no mention of God requiring a body or existing in some mysterious astral plane it being innate to our being to observe anything without actually being fully engaged, or completely involved mentally.

For instance the poet’s experience of freedom beyond the dungeon walls may in fact be as real as any astral projection ever thought of.  As spiritual beings we can do all sorts of things that are merely precisely imagined that are physically worthy of ridicule, and intellectually lacking much credence at all.  Spiritually time travel is easy, even commonplace, but physically it may always be impossible and intellectually seems to be purely extant only in the imagination and memory.  Also to think the exact thoughts of others probably is far more common than we think and to train ourselves accidentally or on purpose to duplicate what those think who have passed or who are presently experiencing some physical distance should not be that uncommon, while logically it remains impossible to read the thoughts of others especially total strangers.

It must be remembered that whatever came first it was the spiritual obviously that was and cannot be destroyed.  All else is temporary to questionable at best anyway.