The Life Of Jane

The mysterious beginning.

" Well let me start off by introducing my beautiful and wonderful daughter Jane to you "my dad said.

" hello dear, how are you? I'm Mr Steve Harvey the CEO of Harvey's Enterprises Limited, your father has told a lot about you to me already.. You can spare me the acquaintance.

  I smiled to show an approval of his kind gesture and I was deeply relived to be honest... *phew *

Mr Steve came along with his wife and only son, they dined with us that evening.. His wife was super cool, she talked about her fashion show and how it earned her a lot of money.

At some point I fell in love with her charisma, on the other hand though her son John was calm throughout the meal like he was a mute.

During the meal, dad talked about my grades and how I acquired a lot of scholarships.. Blah blah blah, I felt like the girl with the good grades but low self-esteem clinged on me like a parasite that derives nutrients from it's host.
It wasn't easy for me to fight through that during my days in the University, now I'm out and it feels like the world would eat me raw and crack my bones every bit of it till am void.

After the meal, dad and Mr Steve discussed more about the current economic situation of the country, mom and Mrs Sharon Harvey talked about fashion, food and family.. I call it the "3Fs women colloquialize " about.

Then I was left with John, what the heck was I supposed to chat with him about.. Hmm

Finally I came up with something, "hey "I said, and he replied with a "hey "too... That's sad

"Do you like songs? "I said,  to my biggest surprise he said yes, okay I don't really know if he's trying to be nice or he actually likes songs.

" I do write a couple of ditties, sometimes poems but I've not written a full song before " John said.

At this point I knew he actually likes music or perhaps writing songs.. Hehehe

"oh that's cool, I do write poems too but that's being lately though  I'm used to writing heart wrenching songs" I said. "I'm the type that puts my feelings into writing "I continued,

"well that's exactly me like, I'm not the out spoken type so I pen down my heart desires, my secrets, my pain, my joy in writing.. FYI I don't share myself with anyone else, I grew up that way "he said.

At that point I knew I wasn't alone in this fight, someone else faces the same struggle as I do.

    We conversed on and on about music till it was time for the family to leave, we both wished the conversation wouldn't end but it did end.

      Now I found someone who's just like me but the problem is we both come from separate worlds, we can't even be a match at all.. *I thought to myself *

       Later that night, I was thinking out loud about what the future holds for me, already dad told me I'll be working at the Harvey's Enterprises starting tomorrow and he wants me to give my best shot in this work.
Dad told me that Mr Steve had agreed for me to work as the assistant economic analyst considering the fact that I'm new to the company.

OMG... That happened so quick, like I just graduated from Portsmouth university with 4.0 GPA and at the same time I passed my ICEE (Institute of Chartered Economics England) exam last two weeks and here I am already offered a job with high requirements and specialisation.

    Aside that my family  expected a lot from me, my friends too wanted the same, it's like sharing yourself into two while in essence you're just one.

       The pressure was much and I just had no choice but to keep up with it, especially being the only child my parents wanted me to be a genius per say and I'll was taken to the best schools, given the best most expensive special treatment just to be who I am today.. A certified Economist.

        But there was something hidden in this life of mine... There's a lot of them though but one supersedes them all and that's my ill health, I suffered from Major depressive disorder (MDD), also known simply as depression, is a mental disorder characterized by at least two weeks of low mood that is present across most situations.

       It is often accompanied by low self-esteem, loss of interest in normally enjoyable activities, low energy, and pain without a clear cause, Major depressive disorder can negatively affect a person's personal, work, or school life, as well as sleeping, eating habits, and general health..this means I'm going to struggle real hard at work.

       Well this ill health of mine started when I was 6 years old, my parents travelled out to build their selves with a befitting career while I was left alone with the maids at home to take care of me.

     So that's how it all began with me feeling lonely and depressed, and till now I'm still suffering from it although I'm on due medication, but it has just one cure and that is close bond with someone you love and trust.

      But you might wonder, how I've got the sickness even though I have friends, that's because I like them but I don't love them neither do I trust them. "Trust takes years to build, seconds to break and forever to repair ."

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Hey guys, I hope you enjoyed the first part of my book, it wasn't easy for me to halt for a second, I really enjoyed writing this piece. I hope you do too.. Please drop your comments and please endeavor to vote as well. Thanks xx