Poems

Him

4/18/17

  Before I realized, as I was looking across the vast sea of somewhat familer faces my gaze was rested on something I couldn't pull my eyes from, someone I shouldn't be looking at, someone that I shouldn't love, someone that is so locked away from me there is no key to unlock the chains.
  Love is a tricky thing, your heart can't feel and your brain is so blinded by millions of other things the time it has to be thinking of love is so little it just picks the first person to walk by. Or does it? Maybe all your brain's thoughts revolve around that certain someone you aren't allowed to have, that someone that you can't quite touch because you're the only one reaching out.
  If you weren't reaching out you'd fall and have no hope of grabing a hold of your life line. That someone, for me, was him.
  I'm staring at him right now I can't seem to tear my eyes away. Its impossible to fall in line with my normal routine. He keeps my mind busy, sometimes when I catch his gaze my mind forgets to breath and I just stand there not moving a muscle.
  I wish I wasn't tied to the weight that's dragging me to the bottom of the ocean to be left and forgotten.
  He doesn't know how his smile alters my path, or the fact that I never stop thinking about him. He'll never know because I'm supposed to love someone else, I say I love someone else. But what I mean is...I love you.
    ~emayelizabeth