Hannah's been dead for a month now and I still hear her voice while I walk the halls, I never understood how important she was until she died but it gave me a understanding of life and support but I will never love someone as much as I did Hannah. Today is the first day of Senior year and I don't think this year will be the same without Hannah, yes I need to move on but how ???
"Hey Clay, welcome back" said Tyler "as to you Tyler...." I walked down the halls everyone was so happy to see each other again but I was just hoping to see one person and that was Hannah. It may seem impossible for the dead to live again but Hannah is still alive in my heart and she always will be. "Have you had a good summer,Clay?" "It was fine,Porter" I'm still ticked at Porter, if he'd done his job right Hannah would be living today but no he questions her but live on right? No how can you Mr.Porter how can any of you, you caused her to die didn't you?.Now Tyler if you all forgot he stalked Hannah and after he stopped Hannah felt like she had no safe place, no where private, no where to escape Tyler took that from her. I continued to walk the halls and I see Hannah's locker... I can almost see her but I know she isn't really there.
I walked into my new home room, palms sweating my "friend" Zach he betrayed Hannah I can never look at him the same way again,I can't look at anyone the same way again everyone killed Hannah I did Tyler did Justin did, but Justin was the beginning of the end for Hannah. "Clay." Tapping on my shoulder, Mr. Gunning my new home room teacher for this year. "Yes" "pay attention sir" this Hannah thing effected my grades and my life and everything I just can't love anyone again or live on without her in my life. It sickens me how all these people just forgot her and it disgusts me. I love Hannah and I always did I was to afraid to love her and it cost her life. "Hey are you ok?" Some girl walked up to me I'm guessing she's in my homeroom also. " yeah I'm fine" " You sure?" She began to shake my hand " I'm Sara I'm new here" I looked knot her ocean blue eyes and paused " oh hi? I'm clay" "clay, I'm noticing you seem upset did you lose someone?" I was confused wondering why she cares why she came to me and how she knows Hannah is dead. " how do you know?" "I can tell your upset, meet me at Montes after school then we can talk" " deal" I was anxious all day but I guess talking about it could calm my nerves but you never know. It came to time to talk I saw her sitting on the table at Montes where Hannah always sat."hey Clay, so what's wrong?" I sat there sweating heavily and you could see she noticed "Clay, what is wrong?" "nothing" you could tell I was lying she put her hand on my shoulder " Clay, I know you miss Hannah" " What! Yeah You know Hannah" " of course I do, I moved right after Kat me and Hannah were great friends and I heard the tapes to Clay, I know you will live knowing that you killed Hannah Baker." I stood up and slapped Sara " I did not kill her!!!!" I stood up and yelled everyone looked at me and I calmly sat back down " listen Sara I don't care what you think about me I hate you, I killed Hannah is this what you wanted to talk about?!?!" " no,I wanted to tell you Hannah is still alive." " funny joke, Sara I saw her take her life." " I can explain you visioned every thing Hannah ran away she is still alive and she wanted me to talk to you." " of course she is how is it possible I imagined everything, show me Hannah now!" " I can't cause she is dead" I stood up and slapped Sara once again "stop playing with my mind Sara!!!! Is Hannah alive or not???" " you'll figure out soon Clay, soon." Sara stood up and walked out of Montes. I stood up and walked back home and sat on my bed and sighed. " Clay,there is someone here to see you it's Sara." " I don't want her here!" My mom completely ignored me and Sara walked in and sat on my bed."Clay, I'm sorry about earlier I should tell you about Hannah." " tell me then and don't lie I swear I will hurt you." Sara looked at me and sighed " I just can't I can't." " why not you know about Hannah you know something no one else knows!" " I can't tell you now I will after this." Sara took out a box of cassette tapes " Sara, I already listened to the tapes I can't go through that again" " no you don't get it there's another tape Hannah made she gave it to me I won't tell when but she did listen to it and I will tell you about Hannah, Hannah may even tell you" " you're telling me there's a 15th tape" " "yes there is just listen to it and call me" I sat on my bed looking
at the tape and slipped it into my Walkman and listened.
