A Try For Ambiguity (Editing and Adding of Chapters In Progress)

Search and Rescue Operation

They say that ambiguity is best when it comes to love. I've always thought if it was true. Is it really true that ambiguity in the love between people is even more exciting than figuring out the feelings of each other? I've never been in love with someone. I've never gave it a shot... Maybe I was just scared.

Do you know Hana Kimi? Well, man you got to know about it. It is about Rey—the girl who pretended to be a guy in an all-boys school. She likes a guy. His name is Stephen. Stephen knew all along that Rui Xi was a girl but he didn’t let the others know that Rey is a girl because of his curiosity. But soon, he found himself falling in love with her. That’s the story that I want to prove. Stephen said that love can happen to anyone else. I held onto what he said. What kind of love story do I want to happen to me?

I want a Hana Kimi Love Story.

"Lia! You have to work hard. This is another first day of school! Make Tobey your inspiration for the grading periods to come and not as a distraction."

Lia Carter's my name and motivating myself in front of a mirror was my game. My friends onced called my with my normal name, which is Lia... not until I became a fanatic of this amazing TV Series called Hana Kimi. That was the time that they finally called me Rey.

I know it's kind of childish to think that a TV series could come true in real life... it's like believing that fairies and unicorns exist. But then again, I still thought, "What if... it could happen in my life?" That thought made me stuck in the world of daydreams and strong imaginations... which was plain... CRAZY, I can say.

By the way... I haven't told you about this huge secret of mine. Tobey James was my crush since I was in fouth grade. He never knew about me liking him when we were in grade school but my feelings started to become clear when my cousin told me that Tobey James himself had a crush on me, too and  named me Taylor--just so he could speak with his friends about me freely without people even knowing that they were talking about me. I didn't want to believe it at first but then... I started to get confused until I finally got used of the fact that... maybe I was falling for him.

Anyway, back to how the first day of school started. As soon as I reached the school, I walked briskly inside and immediately looked for Tobey, searched from east to west; north to south but he wasn't there. Suddenly, tension rushed inside of me... What if, he transfered to another school? What if... I never get to see Tobey anymore?

I kept myself together and thought,"Maybe he just woke up late.", trying to lessen the tension. Soon, all of his friends gathered around but still, no Tobey was on sight.

As usual in every first day of school, my friends would always come to me automatically, cracking jokes and waiting to hear stories about my summer; but I wasn’t in a mood for teling stories and chatting about the newly-arrived handsome guys in town. "Anna, have you seen Tobey? He is still not here." I asked.

"No. Not yet, Rey. Don't mind him. Maybe he’s just late. Just enjoy the first day of school.” Anna said, playing with her hair while looking into a mirror. Maybe she's right. Maybe I'm just overthinking about stuff, I thought.

When lunch time came, I finally faced the fact that he wasn't going to come that day.

Three hours passed and the school bell finally rang for the end of the first half of the first day of school. I was at the cafeteria, eating lunch with my friends.

"You know what guys? I haven't seen Tobey today," I shared. "So? That's not a big of a deal. You can see him tomorrow... the day after tomorrow... the day after the day after tomorrow..." Mitch kept on going until it irritated us. "Shut up!" Hallie snapped, "I think he's still on his vacation. Maybe he went back to his country for a while." Ideas came flooding in my head. It was possible that he left the country for a while or... he transferred to another school. Ideas and possibilities came flooding in my mind. Probably, he went for a vacation, or he was just sick. Transferring to another school or moving into a new house was the wost case that I could think of.

Three days had passed and he, still wasn't there. What if... I never get to see him again?, I thought. That day, I finally built a plan--to have a search and rescue operation for Tobey James.

I searched every corner of the cafeteria and every tables inside the library to see if he was there but the week ended without me even seeing Tobey.

Monday came and I was so down. I couldn't think of anything else other than Tobey's mysterious disappearance. "You know what? There's only one way to know," I said to my friends, while we were sitting in a circle, eating our lunch. They looked at me curiously and randomly said, "What?" Everyone said "what?" except for Hallie, who said, "You got to ask his friends. That's the only way."

"No way! That's too risky! What if he's just hiding inside the school? What if he still studies here? They might know that I have a crush on him!" I said. "Well, what do you have in mind?" Hallie asked. "I was just planning to eavesdrop," I said, softly. All of them gave me a sneer."You know what you should do?" asked Anna, "You should ask Shane, instead." I started to light up. Even though Tobey wasn't there for the whole week, Shane, his sister, was there ever since school started. Shane had been my friend for the last couple of months before summer break. So, it wouldn't be a big deal to ask her about her brother, right? No, I should ask slowly. I should not get into the point immediately, I thought. After a while, I saw Shane about to enter the cafeteria. "Here's my chance, you guys. Wish me luck!" I said, nervously. I paced down the cafeteria floor until I reached her spot. "Hey, Shane! How was summer?" I asked, awkwardly standing in front of her. "Hey, Lia! Did you know that my brother moved to Taiwan?

Whoa, that was fast. I wasn't even asking, yet, I thought.

"What?" I gave a shocked expression, which pretty much gave her a clue that I didn't know and she needed to slow down a little bit on talking about that little detail. "Oh, you didn't know," she chuckled. "He went there to study. For all I know, he's studying in Harrison Collegiate." Even though her smile could usually make a day of a sad person, it didn't make mine.