Okay ?

I laid on my bed patiently waiting for a knock on the door from Isaac and his mum . I wasn't as nervous as I thought I was going to be but the butterflies were still there. My mum came up to tell me she was off to work as it was her first day , so it would only be me and dad at the house . 'Knock knock ' I heard on the door coming from down stairs , I quickly gave my mum a peck on the cheek and flew downstairs ready to greet Isaac and his mum . I paused and breathed in and out trying to figure the whole realisation of it all and what I was doing . Was I being selfish ? Did I really love Isaac or would he just be there to fill the pain from Augustus' death ? I turned the door handle and there was Isaac ..

" hey Isaac " I gently touched his arm to tell him I was In front of him and lead him through the door way next to me .

" hello hazel , I won't be back till late midnight to pick Isaac up today is this alright ? " Isaacs mum asked ,

" yes this should be fine I don't mind at all " I flashed a smile but I could see she looked worried about Isaac , she had her reasons .

" well good bye " she put her hand on Isaacs shoulder and leaned in towards me and asked me to take good care of him .

Isaac ruffled his hair and opened his mouth to speak but no words managed to work their way out .

"Before you say anything , I really don't want this to be awkward between us because of Gus . I know he isn't here anymore but please don't feel the need to be here just because I asked you ..."

Isaac flashed a smile and put his hand on my hips and said " I'm here because I want to be with you . " A sigh of relief exited my body as I leaned in closer I stared at my reflection in his glasses and just stared for a while . I suppose he could hear my heavy breathing through my cannula , he tilted his head and came closer to me and pressed his lips against mine . I knew my feeling for him were like the ones I had for Augustus' but when will my feelings ever be the same for someone .

"I bet you look beautiful today " Isaac said ,

" if you call bed head and bags under my eyes beautiful , then I guess I'm the most beautiful girl you will ever see !! " I giggled but then realised what I said . I was waiting for Isaac to say something about it but he just carried on smiling In a weird way .

" why do you keep smiling , did you realise what I said ? " I asked ,

" what's the point of being sad ? Just because I'm blind doesn't mean I have to be miserable all the time , yes I've been known to go over the top with things but that's just ...."

" that's just .....? "

" that was just me but not me " he finished .