The Lyrics Of Us | Camila/You

It Ain't Me (Chapter 2)

Camila's POV

I had a dream. We were sipping whiskey neat.Highest floor, The Bowery. Nowhere's high enough. Somewhere along the lines. We stopped seeing eye to eye. You were staying out all night. And I had enough

In the beginning being with Austin was great. We were 17 and he made me forget about  Y/n. God, I wish I could make everything up to Y/n. Austin just isn't Y/n, so I left him. Two days. I'm not ready to see him/her again. She/he probably hates me. I'm such a dumbass for doing what I did to Y/n.

No, I don't wanna know. Where you been or where you're goin'. But I know I won't be home. And you'll be on your own

Austin changed though. He stopped caring about me. I don't think he ever did. He ignored me, but not as bad as I did to Y/n. Austin started drinking a lot. He never hit me, but he never loved me either. I'm pretty sure he cheated several times. He wouldn't stay home with me anymore. I'd be in bed alone most nights. Waiting for him. A drunken Austin, demanding sex and he wouldn't stop until I locked him out of "our" bedroom. I don't think you could call it our bedroom, considering how little time he spent there.

Who's gonna walk you through the dark side of the morning?
Who's gonna rock you when the sun won't let you sleep?
Who's waking up to drive you home when you're drunk and all alone? Who's gonna walk you through the dark side of the morning?

So I left him. He didn't treat me right. Y/n did though. Y/n. I miss him/her so much. I was so young and such an idiot when I let him/her go. She'll/he'll never forgive me. I've got all tour to attempt to get her/him to forgive me. I don't think 6 months are long enough though. I put him/her through years of pain. I can't make it up to him/her ever. I didn't know I was crying until I saw tears fall onto my lap. Why was I such an idiot.