Looking for the light

Left behind

Why Don't you trust me man?

I worked my ass of for you treated you like my king my everything

I made you smile, I made you laugh, I made you feel special!

You are my darling angel
My everything

I believed in you

In us

But you betray me hurted me broke my heart
In a way I asked you not to do

I should killed you or hate you so much but I couldn't cause I can't hurt the one I love

Wait what...

This is me we are taking about

I was the one who would get out of your life with out saying good bye

Then I realized I really love you that you are the one for me

I never felt this way that is what I said!

I didn't left you cause you had your pain so I pushed my pain away so I could be there for you. So I did

But because I didn't talked about my pain things were getting worse.

Now you can't even look me you think I am the devil

The one who will break your heart

You said I betray you

But then I have a question for you!

You betray me first but I pushed my pain away cause I knew you had your own pain and you were not yourself

So held you up and I was going down

Now I have my mental breakdown and I need you support

You get angry at me
Tell me I am hurting you, I am the bad guy

But tell me boy

Why can't you just put your pain away so you can help and support your girl who is broken because of you

Why don't you bring me up up up like I did for you?

I screamed so many days for you and your help

I screamed with tears on my face I NEED YOU

That is why I said you weren't there for me

Cause you didn't do the same for me as I did for you.

I understand I wasn't true about my feelings cause I said I am fine

But you knew I wasn't fine but still you did nothing

Why?

This is what I wanted to tell you but I couldn't cause you were still in pain and I pushed mine away for you

Cause I rather be in pain then my loved ones

But still you don't see that

No you just give up like that

Because of my mistake

You can forgive the whole world but not me the one who was there for you 24/7

People left you and they came back and you forgave

I maybe hurted you but I stayed and you left me alone and didn't forgave

It is the hard truth: people who be good for others are the one who will be left behind with a broken heart.

But look at god he is feeling this pain for years!!!!

He told me don't give up be good and forgive I am doing that and I won't stop doing that

Even when I am dying from the inside out

AMEN!