Sleepless Night

They say that “Time makes you stronger”

But I can’t hold on much longer

I’m hanging onto razorblades, to the words that bring out my fears

I wake up and get through the day

I smile for my friends and I smile for my family but,

my smile’s becoming transparent

Awake in my bed, tossing turning.

No one listens no one cares.

I want to be heard but nobody is there.

cant you see what I see?

An ugly little girl with a broken heart, broken mind.

in love with her deepest dreams.

I’m told im too young to lose hope

And I’ve got so much to live for

To my love my reason to stay alive

The only one that makes me believe someday i really will be ok

But I’m paralyzed by my own reflection

And the bags under my eyes, become more define every time i look in the mirror.

They say that if you love yourself everyone else will love you too

But I’m tired of myself and I am giving up the fight

Against me and my stupid mind.

I’m stuck in my own ugly skin

This war I’m fighting I just can’t win.

Its gone on too long, there’s nothing for me to lose,

Except another little girl who can’t find away through 

The hatred for herself.

I guess its her mind whos won this fight

Me versus my mind.

im always prepared because i know,

It’s always gonna be just another sleepless night.