(A/N:Just wanted to let you know that the twist that I talked about is in this chapter)
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"You have some explanations to do" Grayson said while taking the bandage from my hand
"I am sorry about all this,but I don't feel like talking...um..I will be back by 6" I said and took my coat and left.
Ethan's POV
Oh my god! What did I do! Oh my gosh,I feel like I have to throw up.
I can't stop crying,I hate myself,I should've known that they both don't deserve me,they deserve a lot better and I...don't deserve them either,I deserve pain.
All these years I messed up,I tortured the only person who I ever loved other than Grayson and with a snap I lost both of them today.
I became this because of Jack,but it's not his fault,it's all mine.
I should've trusted Sam
I should've let her live
I should've let her smile
But I didn't.
My thoughts were disturbed by a knock on the door.
"Ethan,open the door" it was grayson..
I put my hand on my mouth as I didn't want him to hear me crying.
"Bro please,Ethan I am your brother! Open up" he said with a soft voice
I went towards the door and slid by the door making me sit on the floor with my back facing the door. (A/N: I didn't know how to explain it 😅😅)
I could feel him doing the same,I could feel him crying and it was all because of me.
"We'll talk it out Eth,just let me in once" He said with sniffles
His crying made me wanting to kill myself,I cried more,louder than before.
"For me Ethan?" Grayson said
"I can't gray..son" I managed to say
"You call me Gray not grayson"
"It was when I didn't hurt you,it was when you were happy with me,it was when I was a good brother"
"Ethan no! You are the best brother I could ever ask for,please talk to me,tell me what happened,what is wrong"
"I don't deserve her Gray,I don't"
"Eth she loves you"
"Yes and I don't know why,all I gave her is pain,tears"
"Tell me why,how?"
"You know about the jack incident right,when I told him to leave,he got into a car accident because he was angry because of me,I said things I shouldn't have,I hit him and he got into this,he survived but left the city,I thought I lost her Gray,I thought I lost her but she stayed"
"I told you e,she loves you,I do too"
"That's not all,after the jack incident,I went into depression,I lost it Gray! I didn't tell Sam about it rather I let out all my frustration on her,I hurt..hit her gray,I tortured her! I am still not completely out of my depression and she doesn't know that,I hurt her Everytime I see her with a guy,not because I am jealous but because I know that others can treat her better and she can leave me any time gray." "I am just a monster gray,I think you should leave too"
I burst into tears
Silence
"Gray?" I open the door he isn't there.
"I knew it,have a good life buddy" I say to myself with respect to gray
I went to the washroom,I took my blade and I was about to strike it when
"Ethan no!" Grayson comes running
"Don't stop me gray,don't stop me,it's for the better,trust me okay? And take care of Sam for me,treat her better-" I was interuppted by a slap on my face
"I love you Ethan! Samantha loves you! She'll die without you! You idiot...I love you!, I will die without you!,let Sam come home,we'll talk it out and we'll help you get better,trust me please?" Grayson said
I hugged him tight not willing to let go of him,he hugged me back to.I cried and cried and cried
"I don't know why you love me so much,I've done nothing to deserve it" I say
*footsteps*
"Ethan!" Sam came running towards me,gray let me go and Sam jumped on me.
I held her,but I couldn't hold her for long after realising what I did to her,I put her down.
She looks at me disappointed
"Ethan" she says while lifting up my chin,I keep my eyes down
"Ethan? Don't do this,it kills me to see you like this" she said
I closed my eyes tightly letting tears to fall
"Grayson told me about what all you told him but here's my confession:
I was,am and will be in love with a guy who is silly enough to think I'll leave him,not realising that I love him to the moon and back and again to the moon and then back again......I am stranded with a silly guy who is the cutest in the world and,will improve for the better because I have fallen for him a thousand times"
I smile and hug her,not letting her go this time
"I love you Samantha,thank you so much for staying with me,thank you so much for not leaving me,thank you so much for tolerating this monster and thanks for loving him"
She hugs me tighter
Grayson joins in
"Let's start for the better" Sam said
