Have Faith ((Niall Horan-AU)) (Editing)

Chapter 5.

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"So, what are you thinking right now?" Niall had been trying to get to me talk the entire ride home, asking me the same question but in multiple different ways. He was really stsrting to get on my nerves, then again that was the only way I would talk; and he knew it. 

I finally gave in after the fourth try of the same question. "I just .. I don't know what to think! We said so much to each other, we got everything off of our chests I guess. It just brings back so many memories..." My mind went back to the day I walked into my room, my own room, and found my then boyfriend getting freaky in the sheets with the one girl I despised most. My body was just frozen in the moment until I screamed so loud they both stopped and stared at me. Kiana just sat there naked with the stupidest smirk on her face and that was when I lost it. Her fake hair was in my hands faster than my eyes could blink. I pulled so hard she screamed out in pain, which only made me pull harder. Her body felt weightless under my grip as I pulled her skinny ass outside of my apartment and slammed the door in her face. The door only re-opened momentarily so I could throw her skimpy clothes out the door and once again slam the door in her face. 

God I hated her. I hate her.

"What other thoughts are you having?" Niall snapped me out of my thoughts and brought me back to reality. The cold and unwanted reality.

I was getting frustrated already playing twenty questions. "About what Niall? What the hell more do you want me to say!" He gave me pleading eyes and I sighed heavily, plopping down on the couch. "I'm sorry."

"It's alright ... I just want to help you, but I can't do that if you won't talk to me."

I brought my knees up to my chest and held them tightly, wanting to stay like this forever.

I just wanted the world to stop spinning and freeze time, just to think without being stressed about small things in my life. I've always been the one to stress about the smallest things in life, even now. I would always tell myself to just stop and breathe, to not the little things get to me like my mom used to tell me. But at this point, I just couldn't do that. 

"I just, it made me think of the horrible times ... but it also made me think of the great times Caiden and I had together. Niall I loved him, I gave him everything and he took it all. I gave him all of my love, my heart, and my trust and he tore it apart, never looking back... until now." I saw Niall's fists clench by his sides as he made his way over to me, taking the empty spot on the couch and pulling me close to him, my head laying on his chest but my knees still pulled in tightly. 

"I know he hurt you, I was there through it all ... the good and the bad. I saw you experience falling in love, you came to me with every problem you encountered and every fight you and Caiden had, I remember it all. You even told me about the romantic parts and I hated it, remember?" We both laughed, remembering when I would call him on the phone all giddy because Caiden had done something 'so sweet'. 

"Yes, I remember like it happened last week." I sighed again, crossing my arm over my chest and nuzzling my head between Niall's shoulder and chest. "It's just been so long."

There was silence for a few seconds before he spoke up again. "Do you want to get back with him?"

I shot up quickly and moved away from him giving my most bewildered look. "What? Get back with Caiden?" He nodded slowly and I opened my mouth to say no but quickly closed it again. Do I want to get back with Caiden? No, I can't possibly get back with the person who shattered my heart into a million pieces, no way. "No." I said doubtingly, only to get a dissapproving from Niall. "Maybe? I don't know! I just need time, I can't do this right now, I'm tired and I need sleep."