and she left the room. I sat there in a puddle of my own tears. The room dark, and just the echoing sound of my sobs. The only thing that my mind kept repeating is, "again she left again." My heart ached so bad. To the point I felt It in my chest. I knew though that I had to heal fast lay. I felt dumb being hurt. All I wanted to do is cry every single day. I knew I couldn't though. I did not want to become that person. The more I told myself to stop crying. To get up and act as if she meant nothing more tears would come. I tried holding it in but the louder my cry would sound. I tried to put my hand over my mouth to see if that'll help but still the pain wouldn't leave my chest. My eyes were swollen. Then finally my eyes couldn't bring out another tear. It was 6:00am sharp. My classes were going to start soon and I needed to get ready. I didn't do much to myself just the regular black jeans and a t-shirt. Thankfully my roommate was not here. I've been doing this for too long and I knew that I needed to move on with life. I knew even though she never told me she was a little annoyed by it. I understood though because I was annoyed of myself as well.
As I double checked if I had everything I needed I was on my way to class. Before anything though as always I had to get my coffee at Jesses. It was perfect weather as well. Cloudy with the smell the rain left of the soul. As I walked in it was a little extra packed with people today. "The usual," i yelled to the blond haired girl. All of my sophomore year of college I came here every morning she all the employees knew who I was already but I was never good with names so I always forgot everyone's. As I waited there for my coffee to be done I tried blocking out of my mind. I needed to just have one day without thinking about anything or anyone but my classes and how I have to finish my essay.
*text message*
(Roommate)
Hey Emma, my friend is transferring today and she is in your first class if she needs help can you do me a solid and help her?! I was suppose to help her but now I can't. I'll be there today later on tonight. Her name is Shane. Owe you!! Love you!!
I rolled my eyes and smiled. I agreed to help if she wanted to but my eyes drifted when my name was called. I yelled a thank you as I flashed a smile. Class was going to start in ten minutes so I speed walked my whole way there. As I walked in not so many people were here but I sat in my usual seat. As finally my professor came in he just started writing. I couldn't see though because he had a very big belly. It covered the words.
"Alright as you all know already, notebooks only. The question for today is, What is love for you?I really want your view on what love is to you. This is due Wednesday." This was the perfect question for me. I knew already I was able to write so much about it but as I grabbed my notebook and opened it five minutes after that nothing was there. Nothing written. Usually I had no problem but the more I thought was it really love what I had? I had so many other papers to be done so I had to finish this today.
Love to me is to love someone
I couldn't think of anything else. That's all my mind can come up with. Minutes and minutes passed by and the it was time to leave so quickly.
