Lately I've felt hatred
Not just with myself
But others as well
I try not to
But I do
I can't stop
I don't think I will
The fire burns on
And if it goes out
I go with it
It's scary to try and be happy
It's what he'd want
I wrote him a letter
It makes my heart ache after reading it
It's as if someone
Is tugging on you heart
Really hard
Trying to break it
I know I'm crazy
But my world's changed
It's black and white
Like the colors of his fur
And rain falls on my face
Blending with my tears
If anyone asks
It's lint in my eye
Or an eyelash that fell off my eye
It's never the truth
Always a lie
When people ask
Are you okay
My answer is yes
My conscious says
Clearly not
I got to start writing again
It feels good to be back
But it also sucks
Cause I can't do anything about it
Anything to change it
Anything to change me
Maybe he was right
Maybe I am a monster
Lately the fire burns bright and high
