Paranoia

PROLOGUE

I have never been this excited in my life.

I thought to myself as I continue to put more of this shitty make-up I bought.

I wore a dress, definitely not my ideal clothes, but this one's tattered in luxurious diamonds, having a sleek, elegant feel in its pure silver form. I brought my purse, which of course I never used since I always wore backpacks in my entire life. And as far as it goes, backpacks don't go well in dresses.

Why am I doing this? Well, Javi and I rarely make efforts to go out. Don't get this the wrong way, we love each other so much. We just thought these kind of things aren't that necessary for our relationship, and that's called maturity. The more you know.

Haven't introduced myself yet? Oh, sorry. The name's Agatha.

Mariana Agatha Vayne De Llano.

I know, it's pretty long. I don't know, blame my parents for being such perfectionists when it comes to names.

Oh, and don't complain! As if I'd be the one to adjust for you. Idiot.

So.. back to where we were:

"Agatha? Are you done?" Javi's voice echoes behind the mahogany door in my room.

"Yeah, almost done!" I said as I hurrily punch the earrings in my ears, breathed heavily and told myself:

Enjoy the night with him, Agatha.

For one last time, I drew a breath and opened the doors and saw the most attractive face I could ever come up with.

I fazed. I blushed. I did the most cringey reactions when I saw him staring at me and smiling.

"HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!" was the only word he could come up with.

*smack*

"Why the hell are you laughing?!" I told him furiously.

Seriously, I freaking hate this guy, and I love this feeling so much.

"I'm so sorry! It's just.. I don't know. You look weird, especially in that dress"

then he leaned forward and whispered:

"Beautifully weird, Ms. De Llano." then smiled like a devil on me.

"So.. shall we go, my wonderful, girly, GIRLfriend?"

"Asshole. You can choke." I said as I try to impose a hard feeling on him.

"Yeah, I love you too." he said as he held my hand and took off.

The whole date thing was surprisingly great. Sure, it never felt like those cheesy, overly romantic innuendos in movie-like relationships.. but, it felt real. Everything was real. The words. The laughter, the kisses, the hugs, everything that we did that night was all I could ever dream about.

"I'm going to take you somewhere.. really beautiful." Javi said as he smiles like he's dreaming about unicorns.

"I honestly think you're the weird one this time." I mustered.

"But! Blindfold first! Haha!" He said as he put his handkerchief around my eyes.

Oh boy, have I ever told you how much my eyes sparkled when he removed the blindfold?

No? Well shit, I looked like a seven year old girl that's been taken to Barbieland.

"Ta-dah!" Javi said as he nervously raised his arms toward the skies. "You like the stars, right? And this time of the year the stars are totally visible up here! So yeah!"

I was definitely speechless. I wanted to shout a thousand freaking words to tell him how much I hate him for knowing how to make me fall in love in a matter of seconds. I wanted to punch him for acting so nervously when he did a fine job making me fall in love with him. I wanted to tell him how much I love him, and that I wanted him to stay with me, forever.

"I HATE YOU JAVIER! I REALLY, REALLY HATE YOU!" I shouted like a little girl screeching.

"What? Don't you like it? Uh.. I'm sorry! I can take you somewhere else if you--"

He blushed so hard his eyes almost fell out of his eyesockets. He looked so cute when he's flustered. 

"I like it so much. And I hate you for that." I said as I hugged him tight and kissed his lips, they're so tenderly soft, I could kiss him all day.

We spent hours underneath the starlit skies that night. We talked about a lot of things, made each other laugh, and all I remember was me leaning on his shoulder, looking so in love and happy with the man I love.

Ezio Javier De Ramirez is mine, and I wanted him more than anyone could ever have.

"I love you so much, no matter what happens. Okay? You will always be in my heart." he said to me so truthfully, that I felt each word tingle in my mind.

"Hey, being nice and truthful isn't in your vocabulary, so do you want something from me?" all I could tell was jokes, even if I knew he sounded so serious to me this time around.

"No, I guess not. I just wanted to let you know, that whatever happens to us-- to me. We'll always be the people we used to be. That's all." he said as he forced a smile and kissed me on my forehead.

"Of course Javi, of course." I nervously smiled.

I wanted to say more, I really do. But I can't ruin this sweet moment. I mean, I don't want to let negativity in this time. But that was the worst part. I never said more.

And maybe, just maybe. I should have.

'Cause sometimes things happen faster than you think.