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Chanyeol, that's me. I'm that quiet student in class with an extremely loud best friend. I'm known for being that kid who has big ears and a lanky body.

The tip of my ears poke through my hair and it honestly makes me feel unique.

I am also known for being the clingy guy that Byun Baekhyun is always with. Well, he's so small and fluffy, it's hard not to protect him.

Let me be straight up honest with you guys.

It's hard to hide your feelings from your best friend especially when he's already dating somebody else.

It's hard to love someone when you see him everyday, smiling because of somebody else.

Though I never lose hope of him saying I love you to me. I still hope for that day to happen, because that is all I need to hear to keep myself breathing.

I didn't expect to see myself fall for him, it was a slow process but it still happened.

Trying to accept that your best friend is in a relationship and acting like a normal friend was hard in itself already but also hiding the fact that you love him, it just got harder.

If we'll never be an item, I just want to stay beside him forever, even if he looks at me as a friend. His best friend.

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I envy Yifan. He gets to taste Baekhyun's lips while I don't. He gets to hold Baekhyun's hand while I stay behind them, staring in jealousy.

Being in a one-sided love is painful. I can't stand seeing him with another guy.

If Yifan just didn't exist.

I don't understand why Baekhyun loves him, look at me! I'm way better than him, I know how to take care of him and that's what Yifan doesn't know, he never takes care of Baekhyun.

Yes, they go on dates and such but I've never heard Baekhyun say that he felt any passion from Yifan whenever they lock lips.

Baekhyun, he's so precious. He doesn't deserve passionless kisses and cold hands to hold. He deserves kisses full of passion and love and warm hands to hold.

Why can't he ever see me? Why?

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It was just a regular Friday. I don't really have that much plans but I plan on going home to study and sleep.

Though Baekhyun was blabbering about a party later tonight, he mentioned earlier that he was going to attend with Yifan.

He invited me but I just rejected it because I don't really feel comfortable when people around me are getting drunk, while dancing their hearts out.

I just never grew fond of it.

But the pleading look in Baekhyun's eyes made me feel, is this weird? I felt guilt.

Gosh, Baekhyun makes me do all these weird things I don't normally do. Fine, I'll attend the party later.

But it's all for Baekhyun, and why not burst my own bubble for tonight?