I feel like a very very very bad person. Im sorry I didn't update in a while. A lot is happening and I don't even want to get into it because ill just get frustrated and not be able to write so im just going to start writing. And you all are amazing...by now id of thought id be getting hate mail.
If this doesn't make sense and is horrible, it's the drugs. I'm on vicodin and some other stuff and it's making me loopy. My head is the size of a pumpkin and I can't talk because my cheeks are swelled so I'm aloud on the computer longer cuz I cant do anything else. I'm about to fall asleep but I can't because there afraid ill rip the stitches. I couldn't type last night because it was like I was drunk. I barely conscious and I was babbling nonsense. I typed a little on Thursday and Friday and some Saturday (which is when I'm writing this part)
I had the surgery on Friday.
This is more focused on Henry (yay, I love the horn dog) but it also has some foreshadowing in Henry's pov for both couples in it so read carefully.
-Henry (yay henry's first pov XD)
BBBLLLPPPPPHHHHH.... I blew my snot into a tissue and added it to Tissue Mountain, made by yours truly. Alex was lying with me on my bed and it was about a half hour after Grace chased after Will. Alex had brought me some ice cream and I was hogging it down.
After I finished the ice cream I sat the empty bowl on my desk and cuddled to Alex. He kissed the top of my head and I sighed and said "I look like crap." Alex chuckled and I looked up at him with a glare. My eyes were red and puffy from crying and my hair looked like it was made from straw. My nose was red from blowing it and my head felt like it was going to explode into a million tiny pieces and then those pieces are going to explode into a million tinnier pieces.
Why would Will do that, he's my friend. I was so afraid to tell him because I knew how he used to be but I never thought he would go back to that. When he hit me he got this glassy look on his face like he wasn't fully there and it frightened me even more. It was like he couldn't control himself even if he didn't want to do it he couldn't stop himself.
I sighed and rolled over into Alex's arms. We cuddled and right when I was about to fall asleep I heard the house door opened and someone stomped up the stares. Then my door swung open and Grace shuffled in. She walked over to the side of the bed where Alex was and whispered in his ear. I tried to listen in but I was still feeling drowsy from crying and almost falling asleep. Then Grace left.
Alex went to get up but I grabbed his arm and pulled him back to me. He kissed me quickly and then hugged me. He whispered "it's alright stitch I'll be back soon. You'll hardly miss me" I kissed him again and whispered "but I already do" I had a sheepish grin and Alex was smiling too. He quickly kissed me and then yanked himself from my grasp. He said "I love you and you'll be okay."
I sighed and wondered what they were doing. Then Will walked in. I unconsciously pulled my blanket further up to hide myself from him. He sat on the end corner of the bed facing away from me. We sat in silence for a while.
Will was just sitting there so I gathered the courage and whispered "Will." His back shook so I got on my knees and crawled over to him. I sat beside him with my legs hanging of the bed. I looked up at him but his hair was hiding his face. I pulled it back and tucked it behind his ear and started to rub his back. He was silently sobbing. He was like my brother; he was my family, him and Grace. I don't know what I'd do if I'd lose either one of them but if I had to pick I would never leave Alex...ever.
Will never cried and now it scared me. I frantically said "Will, Will it's okay. I forgive you. What else happened? Did something else happen? Is it Grace? Will talk to me......William Joseph Saunders you talk to me right now." That got a little half laugh from Will. He looked over at me and said "it was like I was high. I was so out of control and my body just took over. It was like old Will was back and meaner then ever. It was like the Hulk. One minute I was worried about what you were going to say and the next I was running out the door. Everything in between is a blur. You have to believe me Henry, I never meant to hurt you.....and well I though you were Alex's cousin... but even then what I did was unacceptable Henry....please forgive me. I'm really sorry. I'm afraid of relapsing. I don't want to go back to that and I don't want to put Grace through that and I don't want my mother, brothers, and sisters to see me like that again. When I exploded it felt like I was back there with those drugs doing what I wanted and I'm afraid of that. Henry...I'm afraid. Grace doesn't know about any of this. I don't want to worry her and she's already got enough on her shoulders. So please forgive me. I really need you right now Henry."
