Gallavich: Ian and Mickey Possibly Forever

One: Ian

*disclaimer, there is a lot of swearing in this. Something else, some of the dialogue I used in here, is correct but I added some words to amp up the emotion of the story.*

Ian's POV:

I haven't seen or heard anything from Mickey or Mandy Milkovich in over four months. I don't know what the fuck has been going on. I still love Mickey, but I know that from Lip, that Mickey is still married to that fucking whore. Svetlana was hired by Terry who is Mandy and Mickey's dad to basically in his words, "fuck the gay out of him." And I just...don't get it. He won't say he loves me, on his goddamn wedding day, he said to me something I'll never forget. First I said, "if you give half a shit about me..." he cut me off before I could finish and whispered, "...half? You think I only give half a shit about you?" I swear I heard his voice crack, and saw a fucking tear. We ended up banging and then during his wedding I got drunk off my fucking ass. I called him out by saying, "You're getting married to her, while you are also out fucking guys!" Lip immediately grabbed me and I was bawling my eyes out.

So the next day or so, I went to the recruiting station and asked when I could leave for basic training. The next morning was when the next bus left. So, I went to the Milkovich's to say goodbye to Mandy, and Mickey got involved. He wanted to show me something in his and the wife's room. And he asked me to start over the next night where we left off at the wedding, and I simply said, "no thanks." I told him I was leaving tomorrow morning, and he asked me for how long. I wasn't going to lie, so I said, "four years, at least." He asked me if I wanted him to follow me around like a little bitch and stop me from going. I said no, and started to walk away... then I heard his voice.

"Don't." It broke. His fucking voice broke. "What?" I said back. "D-don't go." he said. He literally broke down. I just walked away with a slight smirk. Mandy walked by and I heard her say, "What the absolute fuck? You're just going to let him walk away like that?" She walked out and we said our goodbyes at the door. That was the last time I heard from either of them.

I am currently on my way back to my home. Home home, with Debs, Lip (if he isn't still at college), Carl, Fiona, and Liam. I would say Frank, but God knows if he's even there. But, I'm back on my way to surprise them. I'm gonna be honest about something. Ever since Mickey got married, I've been slowly getting depressed. It gets worse, I think, the more I think about him, and the fact that he's married. So I don't think about it. Mickey has a baby, a wife, and isn't gay. He will never fucking love me! I'm done. With him. He is making me insane. I LOVE HIM. But, he'll never know... Never. Because I don't deserve that shit. I don't deserve to be just a fuck buddy. I deserve love. I want to be with him so much. But it's very clear, and he's made that very clear, that he doesn't want me. Otherwise he wouldn't have taken over that Russian whore while he was being forced to have sex with her by his asshole dad. But, it turned to not be forceful if he enjoyed it. I couldn't even watch. It made me cry, so I just got up and left. I cried and just laid in bed for several fucking days. I couldn't do it. I can't be with a guy that did that to me. I know I said I love him and shit, which I do. I'm fucking IN LOVE with the guy. I just can't be with him because all he wants is to bang, bang and bang. Nothing else. He's kissed me once. ONE TIME. And that was because I called him a pussy for not kissing me. That was back when I was with Fiona's ex's dad for just a bang. I said to Mickey, I said, "at least he isn't afraid to kiss me." And so, when we went to go take stuff from my bang buddy's ex wife's house... before Mickey went in, he ran back, and kissed me. No tongue, just lips on lips. And it was amazing. I had never felt anything for anyone, even my old boss at Kash and Grab, we kissed, didn't feel anything. Until Mickey. Mickey is my first love. That's why I bailed and didn't really tell anyone. I just said goodbye to Mandy and Mickey because they won't tell anyone.