But It's Better If You Do

Misery Business

A sudden chill ran down my spine as I lurched awake. I was confused to find myself in my own room wrapped up in several blankets. What happened? I slowly swung my legs over the side of the mattress and stood to my feet. As I was exiting my room I noticed my reflection in the mirror. Why am I wearing Loz's jacket? I thought for a moment when everything hit me at once. I sighed angrily then made my way down the stairs.

"Sup, sis. Want some hot coco?" Gam questioned from the kitchen.

"Yes, please." I responded taking a seat at the kitchen table.

I lay my head against my arms and tried to control my swirling thoughts as I made a mental list of pros and cons.
Pros and Cons of staying with Cronus:
• Cro's ego is bigger than his brain – con
• Cro can be a total douche sometimes – con
• Cro can be really rough around the edges, but he's super sweet when it counts – pro
• Cro acts like he's tough shit but really he's a total creampuff – pro

Pros and cons of going back to Kurloz:
• If he screws me over again I'm gonna look and feel stupid – con
• Loz never wants to talk about how he feels or what he thinks – con
• Even though Loz can come off as intimidating he's actually really caring – pro
• Loz acts like he doesn't need anyone but he's protective of anyone that really matters to him – pro
I groaned aloud.

"You ok, sis?" Gam asked setting a mug of hot chocolate down in front of me.

"I hate boys." I responded without lifting my head as I reached for my mug.

"Can't believe I'm all up and about to motherfucking say this, but why don't you just talk to 'em?" Gamzee suggested.

"I don't know if I could face either of them without having a mental breakdown." I sighed.

Gamzee shrugged then headed towards his room. I sat silently sipping away at the warm liquid when my phone vibrated from the front pocket of Loz's jacket.

"Hello?" I asked monotonously not even bothering to check the caller i.d.

"Hiya, doll, howv ya feelin'?" Cronus from the other end of the line.

"Like the Ice Queen." I replied tousling my hair.

"Howv's about I come over and warm you up?" Cro flirted.

"Actually, we need to talk." I stated slowly.

"Sounds like I'm about to get the royal shaft." Cro murmured.

"Just, get here." I ordered hanging up the phone.

While I waited for Cro I decided to take another shower and change into some warm clothes. After changing into a pair of jeans and a sweatshirt I headed back down the stairs. There was a faint knocking on the front door. This is it. This is the moment of truth and I was scared shitless. I slowly opened the door and Cro stepped in.

"Vwhat's you tell, nightingale?" Cronus questioned looking at me expectantly.

"What are we?" I blurted after a brief silence.

"Come again?" Cro questioned.

"I need you to look me in the eye, tell me we're nothing more than a couple of teenagers looking for a quick and easy fuck and that you don't feel anything other than lust for me." I stated almost pleadingly while trying to read Cro's body language.

"You make it sound so heartless. I like you. I'm not in love vwith you or anything and it probably didn't help that vwe knocked boots a couple times either. I vwasn't using you or anything; I think maybe vwe vwere both just in a little ovwer our heads." Cro answered.