the words came out of his mouth all so suddenly. he regretted them immediately. "i hate you." naruto's knees bucked and he collapsed to the ground. a sinister, yet false look of triumph crossed sasuke's face. but really, what he said was exactly the opposite of what he felt. sasuke loved him. after all, how many times had he 'accidentally' failed to kill naruto? yeah. the truth is, sasuke had never been good with his feelings. he was horrible, and filled with hate and jealousy and everything bad. naruto was the last glimmer of hope for him. he didn't know why he was separating himself from naruto, it was only hurting him. and naruto. it killed naruto when he left. from his place on the ground, naruto murmured, "i'm tired of trying." and he picked himself up, and simply walked away, towards the door. the gesture may have looked confident, but from the other side he was shaking, crying. " wait!" sasuke called out. naruto's breath caught. the first time in three years sasuke had addressed him. he turned, slowly. sasuke trudged up to him fast, grabbed his wrists, and pinned him against the wall. his onyx eyes were wild, searching naruto's wide ones. "i can change." he stated weakly, collapsing over naruto, his bangs hanging low, brushing naruto's face. the blonde boy trembled in the older one's grasp. "that's the problem. i don't want you to change. but you did." naruto's voice cracked, then he got more bold, shoving sasuke off of him. "I NEEDED YOU! BUT YOU LEFT ME! NOT JUST SAKURA, ME! DID YOU EVER THINK ABOUT HOW THIS WOULD AFFECT ME?!" sasuke's heart raced, as he was now pinned against the wall, naruto's flushed face just centimeters from his. naruto sighed, regaining his temper. "because it's affected me. a whole fucking lot." then there was silence. sasuke grabbed the collar of naruto's shirt, pressing against him. before he could move, naruto reached up, snatched his own collar, and fiercely slammed his lips against the older boy's. this set off something in sasuke. he leaned deeper into naruto, muffled mewls coming from the younger boy as he reached his hands up naruto's shirt, his hands gliding up and down his sides. with sudden realization, naruto wrapped his legs around sasuke's waist, wrapping his arms around his neck, whispering lewd things into his ear as sasuke carried him to bed. he laid him on a pile of pillows gently. naruto was less hesitant, wrapping his legs even tighter around the raven's torso, squeaking in pleasure as he rubbed his arousal against sasuke's. "nyah!- please-hah!-can't," naruto slowed down for sasuke to catch his breath. "i can't hurt you. i don't want to hurt you." naruto looked down at sasuke from his straddling position. "d-did i do something wrong?" his voice wavered, his bangs dipping over his eyes. "no!" sasuke yelped. "i want you, i want you so bad. you have no idea how many fantasies i've had." he clapped a hand over his mouth, realizing what he'd just confessed. naruto blushed, kind of pleased by this discovery. sasuke reached up to brush the blond bangs away out of his eyes. "listen... the reason i'm hesitant to fuck you is because you're perfect and i don't want to damage you." naruto yelped in protest. "that's not fair! i want you to leave marks on me. i want to be yours." he scowled. "fine. but if i hurt you, i won't live with myself. and i know i've hurt you too many times. i hate this. when i said i hated you, i meant the opposite. i, i love you, and..." naruto yanked sasuke forward to kiss him again. his lips parted, welcoming naruto's tongue only to press against his own. naruto drew back, wiping salive from his grin and eagerly scooched down to remove sasuke's pants and boxers. he flushed at this, hiding his face with his hands. before he got to work, naruto looked up, disappointed. "let me see your face." sasuke laughed, still blushing, but then his hips bucked forward as he felt naruto's tongue against the tip. "nggg!" he bit his lip as naruto began to pump his head at a steady pace. sasuke grabbed his hair, whimpering, melting into every touch. "naruto," he breathed. naruto's irises grew wide. his pupils seemed to shrink. it felt as if his heart had been dropped, like a glass vase. he climbed up to sasuke and, his voice trembling, he rasped,"what?" sasuke curled into himself defensively. "i-i said.. i said naruto." naruto could have melted with joy just then, but instead he found himself wiping back tears, cuddling into sasuke's chest. 'that's the first time in over two years you've said my name. do you realize that?' naruto wondered, searching the gentle eyes looking down at him. "oh god naruto, don't cry!" sasuke leaned forward and kissed the blushing boy's nose. naruto half-squeaked, half-sobbed into his bare chest. "i missed you." sasuke then realized how much time he'd wasted then, without the one he wanted to be with. naruto was crying. and it was his fault. he wrapped his arms around the shaking blonde, tugging him closer. he took naruto's hand and placed it on his left chest. "can you feel my heart?" he whispered against his ear. naruto nodded, his head lifting a little from under sasuke's chin. it felt like a pillow, a soft thudding noise. and still placing his hand on sasuke's heart, he stretched up to kiss him, expanding the heart rate. sasuke smiled against naruto's lips. "now you know who it beats for." naruto shoved sasuke against the headboard. "you cheesy fuck!" he yelped, laughing. sasuke was still smirking in a fond way, and though naruto had stopped crying, his face still wasn't recovered from the light scarlet flush it took on from the tears. naruto yanked sasuke on top of him and kissed him gently. "please." sasuke murmured. naruto looked puzzled. "you told me to tell you what i wanted you to do with me." sasuke explained, blushing. "s-so i'd... it would basically be a damn right honor to be fucked by you, uzumaki naruto." naruto laughed, removing his boxers as if on cue. sasuke stared. it was big, for such a petite boy. sasuke yanked his from his ankles and let naruto's arms circle his hips, lifting them to prop them up on two pillows for support. "i don't want lube. just you." sasuke whispered into naruto's collarbone. naruto crouched between sasuke's legs, sticking two fingers into his mouth, then mercilessly inserting them to the entrance. sasuke gasped as his prostate was immediately hit. naruto puffed out his chest in pride at being able to pleasure the one he loved. "put it in." sasuke finally said between gritted teeth. naruto positioned himself so that his neck was over sasuke's face. his member was aligned with the entrance and his hands were digging into the bed at either sides of sasuke's head. sasuke's arms were around naruto's neck, clinging to him. his lip quivered as naruto shifted to become closer.
naruto smiled against his lips. his eyes weren't visible because his bangs were hanging over half his face. then he made the first thrust. sasuke whimpered so loud the neighbors couldn't possibly have not heard. then naruto thrusted again, and again. sasuke found himself mewling and clawing at naruto's back as he quickened his pace. he wrapped his legs around naruto's waist, pulling him impossibly closer into him. the window's fogged up, isolating the winter outside as they panted, screaming eachother's name. "i'm, 'm gonna..." midsentence, sasuke came all over his chest. just seconds later, naruto did the same inside of him. "SASUKE!" naruto screamed. then he went limp, with sasuke's arms still hooked under his own. he fell, his nose digging into the side of sasuke's neck, panting, but still desperately kissing it. "i don't want to spend a minute without your tongue shoved down my throat." he breathed. sasuke blushed. "i love you." he said finally, because he didn't get to earlier. naruto sat up, straddling him. "really?" his eyes were bright. sasuke looked up and nodded. his smile looked proud. "now you know."
