Thinking Of You
By Erin
Walking backwards,
Searching through the memories,
Finding the one that was
The biggest mistake,
Crying because
I can't believe I was so stupid,
So naive.
He kept me in the dark,
After every time he broke my heart;
Every month
Once a month,
I let out all the feeling
Building up inside of me,
But he still
Put me down,
Kept me in the dark,
Even though I had a strong light
Trying to push out.
Maybe he was afraid,
Of the light
I held,
Maybe I was imagining,
Dreaming,
Those feelings I kept inside.
Because I need now,
Him to return,
Just to show myself,
That I don't feel anything.
Everything all,
Jumbled up,
Moving too fast
And I can't understand
My own heart.
All I know is that,
I need to know,
Exactly how I feel;
Because me love will never fade,
Even if we are
Not meant to be,
I'll forever be in your heart,
An illusion or everything.
Maybe then,
It was real,
Maybe it was true,
Maybe it was meant to be;
You and me.
Right now,
I yearn to see you,
To hear from you,
To speak to you.
I sit up,
Restless,
And wish for a miracle
Because that's all I've ever known.
Can't fall asleep,
Without dreaming of you,
I need a replacement
Find me a replacement!
My eyes searching,
For someone better,
But every time
It turns to you;
What would you,
Have done?
No other is like you,
No one can replace you.
And I'm drowning,
In the love I've stored,
Except I don't know if it's love;
Tell me,
Is it love?
I don't know,
Anymore...
So undecided,
Only thinking of
You,
And maybe a happy
Ending.
