Do you know?
Does everybody know?
How it feels.
To be in hell and in heaven
Good and evil.
Do you know how it is, to feel that ache in your heart, and everybody is looking ad you and your highest desire is anything but being a drop of this rainy may.
Do you know, how hard it is, when you can not say a word because they are there. Ready to look at you and swallow you. You and your tiny little heart. To be judged, insulted, to be object of your laughing.
It hurts.
How it is to wake up in the morning with the complete anxiety of being human.
Not to sleep. To dream. Those terrible nightmares with corpses and dead bodies all over your eyes. And you are falling down.
On this wave, there is no rest.
No rest.
Never.
