Ambrollins (Highschool AU)

Seth's POV

Maybe if i lay here it will go away... fuck, it's been in my head for awhile now, and i'm feeling awful for having feelings for him.

But it's almost impossible not to like him. He is everything i need and all i asked for. I shouldn't have kissed him in the locker room ... What if someone saw us? And he seemed disgusted, and confused. We haven't spoke for three days since then. I see him at school, in the back seat in the class but we don't talk, he doesn't look at me, or when he does he looks right away...

I ruined it. I ruined our friendship. I lost my hunger, i lost my motivation, i feel nervous and those damn butterflies all the time, and not even Roman can help me with this one. I just wished i hadn't kissed Dean

Dean's POV

I can't stop looking at the damn phone. It's like i have to check it from 5 to 5 minutes.

And all this shit just because that idiot kissed me.

Whyy, dammit? Everything was alright, my feelings seemed to be fading away, and then in that morning after PE he had to kiss me, and i... completely melted into the kiss. God, and those arms around me... and i need to stop thinking about it. I don't want to cry. What if someone knows about it?

I can handle a lot of shit, but being joked for being a faggot is not one of them. I'm not gay! I think...

I'm in denial. But it's hurting me so much, i find myself crying in the middle of the night thinking about how it would be amazing to just let it go, to just forget the labels and be with him, walking around school holding his hand, kissing him and hugging him when i want, to be able to call him mine... and maybe i could ignore the looks everyone would give us, i would ignore everything for Seth, only for him.

I don't know myself anymore, i never liked guys, fuck...

I'm still checking my phone for a sign of Seth. Just an "hello" ... or an "i need you. i miss you. and i love you". That is aiming too high