It was a Monday afternoon. I was sitting on one of the benches at school with my laptop on my lap and my fingers on the keyboard trying to type my 1000-words essay for my book report. Writer's block. Yeah! I was kinda brainstorming in my thoughts figuring out what to write. And I ended up staring blankly at a fine creation that is coming towards me. Those lean and masculine body wrapped in gray colored fitted shirt, tight jeans and chucks. The way those strands of brown hair fall unto the right places on your forehead, your light brown eyes that became lighter in the orange spectacle of the afternoon sunset and your smile...oh! that sweet, innocent, blissful and warm smile.
"Alice! hi." you said to me that snapped me back to myself. You sat right next to me about 6" away from me. I know I mentally calculated our distance just to keep myself sane. Ghad! You are sitting next to me and my heart is beating too fast, too loud abnormally. No! Not a heart attack! I was even counting how many times I was blinking....ohh the things you make me feel!
"Yeah. Jason." I bluntly retorted. I'm too embarassed to say anymore than that. I stiffened; afraid that if I'd do or say anything else he'd see through my feelings.
"You're writing. For the literature class, isn't it?" so he noticed.
"Uh-huh."
"You always get an A in literature. You love writing huh?"
"Mmm." ohmygod. I just realized i was not even answering him with a complete sentence. The fast beating of my heart is over powering me on a very crucial moment of my entire love life! This is the first time we are actually having a conversation except those morning greetings he gives me while I just nod at him everytime coz my shyness just takes over.
Wait! Ever since he was trying to catch my attention. All along he was trying to reach out to me while I was busy keeping my distance from him. Baka Alice!
Then a warm feeling touched my hand. I looked and found him tightly gripping right hand. I looked at him feeling anxious, with what seems like tiny butterflies fluttering their wings at the moment in my tummy. He was staring at me with full of longing......wait! Where did that come from? Longing? Seriously Alice? Quit hallucinating! Don't get your hopes up. A sparkling guy like Jason won't feel anything towards you, a nerd.
I was about to take my hand back but he pulled me back. I was taken aback.
"Alice...." This time, the way he called out my name, his voice made my name sounded so beautiful to my ears. It felt gentle, caring and wanting in his voice.
Then the wind of the afternoon breeze blew that made a few strands of my hair cover my face but I didn't mind. The sunset was a splendid sight but I didn't wanna see that now. There were loudly cheers for the soccer team playing in the field but I didn't hear them. I don't even know what else was happening around me all that registered in me was that I was bravely staring into his eyes and I am lost, drowned even, in my feelings for him that just keeps on growing everytime.
"....has it?" Wait!? What was he saying?
"I'm sorry. I didn't catch that."
"Have you finally felt it? Has my feelings finally reached you Alice?"
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Ours started quietly. There was no extravagance, no exciting events in between..only little things that made us smile secretly. There were no fireworks but it felt eternal. Jason and I, our feelings maybe started quietly and boring for many but it was real and right there and then we both knew it's forever. ♥
