A Writer's Love

   ( dreams )

Him :  You're going home?
Me : yeah
  ( he shrugg and run his fingers into his hair )
  " Umm.. can I take you home? " he asked.  I lift my head and look into his dark color eyes.
   It's been months since the last time he took me home.  But its been months since we never talk and began to treat each other like stranger's,  and that keeps me breaking apart.
   " No.  I mean. I'm with Brandon "
I said and frowned.
" Brandon?  So you two are close now? " he smirked.

   Brandon was his friend.  and I know what he is thinking.  Could he ask first why Im with his friend than looking at me like he's judging me.

   " Yes.  He is a friend. And.."
" Is he courting you? " he shot.. and look at me straightly.
  " No.  I'm with my bestfriend and I guess you knew that Renzo your friend is my bestfriend's boyfriend.   They just ask me out that's why I'm here, and I didn't know that you were here... " 

   "  Avery! "
Before I could turn to see who it was,  an arm clenched into my shoulder. I look up and stare at Brandon's face, half smiling.   " Youre here bud? "  he ask him.
I stare at Him as he nod and look at me then at brandon and back at me.  For the first time, I saw his eyes in mix emotion of guilt, confusion, and lose.

   " chill bro!  Your Girl is not my girlfriend "  Brandon speak.
  " she..  she is not my Girlfriend " He said and looked away.
A pang of pain strikes me, its like I was shot by a gun and the bullet stucks at my heart.  Of course what shall I expect. Hes not my boyfriend.

  " oww!! " brandon mocked.
"Brandon,  I think  I want to go home "  I said.
   " okay " Brandon agreed and drag me slowly by the hand as we trooped towards the parking lot.  I look back at Him and saw him Staring at me and Brandon.

    " will you please stop acting weak? "
  Brandon scoled as I look at him in surprise.  " You know how stupid you are to act that way on his front?  Wake up Avery! Hes just hurting you! " he said Frankly.
I want to cry.. but I not in Brandon's Front.
   " You're wrong " I said under my breath.
   " what? "  Brandon ask in confusion.
  " my Feeling's are hurting me.. Its not him. If I could just.. "
My tears start falling, which makes my sight became blurr.  I feel Brandon enveloped me into his arms.
   If i could just learn how to forget him...

.....

  Cuckoo..  Cuckoo...

The cuckoo clock rings which interrupt my dreams. I covered my whole face with my pillow and try to catch sleep again.  But it keeps on ringing.
  I groaned and sat straight at my bed, scratching my messy hair. After a minute, the clock stops.
  " nice "  I muttered under my breath and rolled my eye.
I was about to slid out of my bed when Mara suddenly enetered the room.
  " Goodmorning sleepingBeauty! " she greeted half screaming. She jump at my bed and place both her palms on her cheek. " You have a visitor my dear! " she informed.  " Hes waiting for you downstairs "
  I throw her a questioning look. " He? ".
  Mara nodded and pouted her lips. " He said, he is your friend. " she replied and stood up.  " Well, I have to go. I already cook a breakfast so you dont have to cook anymore. I'll be back at 3 in the afternoon. "  She added and enveloped me.  " Bye. Honey! "
  I smiled and waved at her. I watch her exited the door. She' s wearing a pale blue skinny jeans and red shirt which cut above her waist.  I jumped out of my bed and make my way downstairs, still on my pajamas and messy redblonde hair which I just colored 2 months ago.

    As soon as I reach the last step of the stair. I glance at the man sitting at the couch, wearing a dark blue long sleeves folded up to his elbow and a black slacks.  I cleared my throat which makes the man turn his head.

    " Avery? " he greeted and stood up.  He walk closely to me and gave me a hug.
    " Wayne? ". 
He released me and look at me from head to toe.  " whoa! You change a lot.  What happened to the blonde? " he ask and slightly touched my hair.
  I shrugg. " I change it "
He only nodded  and smile.
  " Do you want a drink? Or breakfast? " I asked.
" no thanks. I wont stay too long. " he said and went back at the couch.
    " 'kay. How did you know I'm here? "

   " Adson.  It happen that I have a business appointment here for a week, and tomorrow will be my last day.  So, I asked your brother where you are and here I am! " he said.  " So?  How long has it been? "
     "  2 years "  I snap.

  He nodded and touched his chin.  Wayne change a lot.  From his messy dark hair now it was cut neatly ,  the way he dressed , and everthing.  From a band member boy into a professional business man.  But his scent never change , the one that Claire fell inlove with.

   " How's Claire, anyway? "  I asked.
His face went serious but change again into his blithe expression.
   "  Haven't you heard? Were over 2 years ago. "  he answered.

  I frowned. " What Happened? "

He gave me a tight lip smile before answering. " After I graduated, I get busy with everything which it falls into having a less time for her.  She thought I have someone else.  We  have this nonesense fight all the time.  So I decided to let her go. "  He informed and bow his head..
  I can still sense the loneliness on Wayne.  I know he didnt want to end the relationship between him and claire, but he had no choice.  Sometimes, you have to know when to let go.

    " I just hate to think I'm hurting her. Thats why I set her free. "  he added.
  " I understand "  I said.

I look outside as the both of us fell into silence.  Its been 6 years since I moved here in Tenessee and its been 3 years since I haven't visited my home in North Carolina. And because of Wayne's visitation its like he brought N.C with him. How I missed the place so much and everything there.  I hadn't thought of going home since the last time I went there.

    " So you dont have any news about claire?  "
I shook my head.
  " no, ever since we graduated and entered different college school.  I keep on reaching her out, until I dont know how our communication ended.  I guess, everything change "         
  I smiled at him and sat up straight.  The last time I talk to my used to be Bestfriend was during her 18 birthday.  And now were both 23.  I never thought that closeness fall into like an already forgotten once upon a bestfriends story.

   After a long conversation with Wayne.  He decided to leaved.  I walked him into where his car was parked.  He gave me another hug , and popped into his car after.

   " Take care , Avery.  I'll tell Adson your fine "  He said and bid his goodbye after a minute.

  I watch his car leaving the street until nowhere in sight.  I yawned as the cold morning breeze hit me.

   " Ave'ys got a boyfriend
     Ave'ys got a boyfriend !! "

Rosie a little girl neigbourhood singed while riding her pink bike.

  " Hes not my boyfriend "  I protest.
While Rosie chuckled and gave me a thumbs up.  I smiled at her and walk back inside the house