Average (Lesbian Story)

Chapter Two

        Some people hate school but I don't really mind it, I mean it gets me away from my mom. Seeing as though most people there hate me, it's still not my favorite place. The classrooms aren't really bad it's the hallways, bathrooms, locker rooms, and the cafeteria. I don't stand out very much so I don't worry about hiding from the others. The only time I lose my cool or panic is when someone points me out, oh God it's horrific. When that happens I feel like I'm a piece of meat being thrown into a lions den.

        A loud car horn startles me and send me flying back in to reality, considering that I was some where high in the sky with the clouds. Then my sister started screaming "Get your ass out here, it's time to leave." 

 

      Leave, if only she only knew how badly I wanted to leave. Not leave the house to go to school but, leave the house to never return. I'd leave this house, this town and this state in a blink of an eye if I could. I might even leave the country. It'd be a fresh start, nobody would know me or my past unless I wanted them to. That would be my dream come true, going to a place where nobody knows me. I think most people would say that I'm crazy for wanting to be alone, but do you know what I think? I think most people couldn't handle the isolation, but I know I could. I could because I'm sick and tired of going to any public place and being the one that makes everybody stop what there doing and stare at me with the look of disgust clear on their face. I hate knowing that they are all secretly hoping I don't get to close to them, because just being near me would ruin there social Image. Some people though aren't so secretly hoping it. Take my sister, obviously, for example, shes very outspoken about her feelings toward me. I'm not going to give her all the blame, it's also her friends.  Though they hate me because of my sister's influence, they still do it. Some people I've never spoken a word to in my life bully me. I understand why they do it, I don't agree with it, but I understand. They want to fit in and they think bullying me will help with that. That's not the case with everyone, some do it to let out there frustration, or to make themselves feel better by trying to break me down. 

  I walked outside  only to be greeted by an insult from my sister, "Do you really go out in public dressed like that."

        Gee thanks, I think. I climb in to the car  we share but,  it's not like I ever get to drive it. The thing is though I don't really have any places to go. Don't think I don't have any friends I do, just not many. You see I told you about the bullying so, you should understand why I don't trust people very easily.

        When we arrived at school I went directly in and walk to my locker where My friend Jenna was waiting for me. 

        " It's your birthday Hun, why do you look so sad?"

        "My family," I said quietly while looking down at the floor. I've grown shy over the years.

        " What did they do this time?" she asked her voice full of concern.

        "Nothing I can't get over," I answered hopping that she wouldn't push. What am I thinking? Jenna won't stop pushing until I tell her.

        "If it makes you sad then you need to tell me. Sammi I'm your best friend, you know you can tell me anything. I won't stop loving you no matter what."

        "Well my sister-" I started but, was cut off.

       

        " When are you going to stand up for yourself !? For Christ sake hasn't this gone on long enough?!" Jenna has never yelled at me before so I was a bit scared.

        "I'm sorry, I'll just go to class now," I mumbled looking down once again and walked around Jenna.

  I was almost shaking right now.I have no idea why Jenna would yell at me like that. I mean, I guess I tell her about the rude things my sister does and saysto me a lot. The only reason I do is because she asks me though so, It's not all my fault. Right? I hope she has calmed down a bit by English because we have to do partner work and if you don't have a partner you get paired with someone of the teachers choice. Jenna has a lot more friends then me so, she could get another partner just as easy. She's actually well liked through out the school, the only reason she hangs out with me is because we've known each other second grade. Without me holding her back Jenna could have the best friends, the hottest boyfriend and go to the best parties, but she stays with me. Weather it be pity or that she's just a good person she has always stuck right by my side but, I don't think Jenna actually likes me. She just doesn't mind my presence. I mean if you think about it I'm the best way to look like a hero without having to do much. I don't talk very often, so when she's having a conversation with her real friends she doesn't have to worry about me saying anything to embarrass her. Then, when someone throws a rude comment at me all she has to do is tell them to stuff it and ask me if I'm okay. Her plan is ridiculously simple, yet just as genius at the same time.